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15 Jan 2011

My Childhood, My Sabbath, My Freedom

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This was written and published by Michael Jackson in December of 2000. One of the things I LOVE about Michael more than anything else is his spirituality.

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18 Responses to “My Childhood, My Sabbath, My Freedom”

  1. MJQuan says:

    wow!!! he wrote this? how do you get your hands on these beautiful things about michael? this is very lovely and some parts of it made me chuckle to myself... but i can feel the love... :heart: :heart: :wub: :wub:

  2. isabeau says:

    Oh Sabine, I read this few months ago, by chance, and I was so much moved... :heart:

  3. Gemeuxx says:

    Omg this made me cry, it's so beautiful. You can see Michael's heart through these words. He TRULY loved God. Now he's finally with the one who created L.O.V.E the king of pop is with the king of kings :smile:

  4. Neecy says:

    That is one of the most gorgeous things i have EVER read... Michael was such a great soul... Its so beautiful. I hope his kids see this <3

  5. Sabine says:

    Helllllllo CCC,

    Hi Gemeuxx, Neecy, Isabeau, MJ Quan!

    I'm happy to share these gems that Michael left us with and so glad that he chose to write them. Many people like to dismiss this aspect of Michael or pretend it doesn't exist; super impose their own beliefs about who Michael was and what he was about because they don't happen to be spiritual or love the Lord.

    But Gemeuxx, I love how you put this:

    Gemeuxx: You can see Michael’s heart through these words. He TRULY loved God.

    Absolutely, and not only that, Micheal LIVED his faith, which is how you're supposed to live your faith. So many people are so much talk. They go about saying, I'ma Christian, I'ma Christian. As a matter of fact, I find people who do that usually turn out to be so un-Christian like!!!! :wassat:

    Michael lead by example and lived Christ-like to the best that he was able, which was a lot better than most people I have to say. He sure was tested!!!!!!!

    But I love that Michael loved God, and honored what his mother taught him. I think it's a beautiful, beautiful quality to have, and I wish that it was celebrated a lot more than it is!!!!!

    Which is why I had to put this up!!!!!!!

    Neecy: That is one of the most gorgeous things i have EVER read… Michael was such a great soul… Its so beautiful. I hope his kids see this <3

    I think his kids got to experience something better -- they got to live with this beautiful soul, and experience his spirituality first hand!!!!

    When LIsa was on Oprah she said something about Michael having this light in him, that attracted so many people -- that light is the light of God :heart:

  6. siguen says:

    I just love reading the things he wrote, I could go on reading endlessly. I just love his wisdom. Through him I got a deeper understanding of what life is about - it's about children and their upbringing, because they are the adults of tomorrow!

  7. Sabine says:

    Exactly, Siguen! The children are us! Michael really understood and got this. :wub:

    I wish more people would :sad:

  8. Gracie says:

    i read this before but thank you for posting it to read again, it is just beautiful. Michael was so wise. I love how he says the rehearsing was the most sacred way he could think of to spend his time, and it makes me sad that he was unable to share in a church community, yes God exists in our hearts, but it is so wonderful to share in His spirit with a church family. And as Siguen said, he deeply understood the importance of a child's experiences...and he always tried to convey that to us. I know myself as a parent, i have really been touched by that and to love and cherish my children as they need to be.

    Also Sabine, I think i didn't get to it in my BBM3 review but i wanted to thank you for writing about Michael's spiritual nature in that chapter as well. I think it is such an important part of who Michael was/is and it was nice to read about him expressing it with Sabah. :heart:

  9. Sabine says:

    Hi Gracie! :smile:

    you know, I can't think of Michael w/o thinking of his spirituality. To me, they are one and the same. Meaning, there is no Michael, if you don't factor in his faith. :wub:

    Unfortunately I've got to be honest and say that many church folk I've encountered in my life have been just horrible! :sad:

    I'm still holding out for that wonderful church community but I, personally, have never experienced it.

  10. isabeau says:

    I am on this page again.. by chance.. if chance exists.
    I read what Michael wrote again and every time I read these kind of things I really wished I could talk to him.
    I know very few people able to be spiritual and earthy at the same time as he was, may be one or two and they live far away from me.
    I have a feeling of 'missing him' so much... it is such a strange feeling my mind can't explain it but I do miss him a lot, I long for his sweet soul that I can only listen through his voice in his songs...
    I could chat with him a whole day and, as I did in one of my two dreams of him, I would mostly listen to him.
    Unfortunatly I didn't remember a thing of what he told me but I remember the topic wa 'human relationships'. He was like in the last years, all dressed in bleack and quite thin and very elegant.
    I was sit on his lap like a girl and I nodded with my head while he was talking, very concentrated.
    He might had a message for my soul, that's why my mind does not remember...

    In the other dream, the first I did last April, he talked to me with his mind and his eyes and it was so clear...
    that was a more intimate dream since we were in my bed under the covers and he was kissing me lightly on my face and shoulders 'telling' me he loved me. I couldn't even move and I remember I held my breath because I was too excited for the whole thing. I remember thinking I was about to faint in his arms but after a while he looked at me with those big black eyes and he 'told' me he had to go... At that point I managed to say the words: "please don't leave me!" but he disappeared and I woke all of a sudden.
    it was 7 o' clock, a little early to get up still... so I remained in bed trying to fall asleep again but I couldn't. Instead I started crying silently because I had this strong feeing inside of having actually met him.
    I had this sour-sweet feeling in my heart all day and all day I coulnd't think of anything else, had trouble working. When, few months later, I saw a clip of that video by Karen Faye, when they are in the trailer while he is dressing up for the set of Speed Demon, I bursted into tears because he looks exacltly as he was in my dream and the feeling of missing him was so strong... This is so strange Sabine, I can't explain...

  11. Sabine says:

    I read what Michael wrote again and every time I read these kind of things I really wished I could talk to him.

    Hi Isabeau :heart: ,

    You know, I always think it would have been nice to have known Michael -- not the Michael that performed for us or appeared in interviews even, because I think that Michael kind of held himself back from how he was with friends or loved ones when he appeared on interviews and such (but sometimes he was more open than in others). But I'd like to have met and talked to the true Michael - it would have really been nice to have gotten to know him and been his friend. I think Michael had a spiritual universal love for mankind that made people want to be his friend, because it was so beautiful -- people want to get closer to that and be the focus of it. Like Lisa Marie said, the "light" that she felt she was basking under. :wub:

    I have a feeling of ‘missing him’ so much… it is such a strange feeling my mind can’t explain it but I do miss him a lot, I long for his sweet soul that I can only listen through his voice in his songs…

    And I'm so thankful that we live in a time and age where he was able to put himself into his music and we can relive it over and over and over again, and watch his footage on interviews and read the articles. I'm always so thankful for that.

    But you know I've never had a dream about Michael in my life! The scenes I've seen in my head or have appeared in a half dream state have always been about Sabah/Saniia -- fictional characters. Still, those scenes seem so real to me, so I'm always in awe of how our mind works, fascinated by it, really.

    I can't say and I'm glad I can't say that I fully understand it, our minds!!! But one of the things I do believe is our minds are so powerful, we create much of our reality and what we feel/see and experience and I always see the dream world as our subconscious talking to us. I see it as a beautiful, mysterious part of our existence that all of us struggle to understand.

  12. JacquelineNeeley says:

    Michael, why did you have to go and leave our world so cold? We miss you, Rest in Peace.

  13. isabeau says:

    Yes, our mind is something magic...
    The junghian say that the caracters we dream are parts of us and I believe that is surely true in some cases but not in others. Esoterists say that there are 3 kinds of dreams mainly.
    The ones that are inducted by our phisical body (sensations we have while we are asleep like smells, touch, position of the body, what we ate at dinner, etc...). The ones that come from processing what happened during the day or in the last period or may be memories of the past (worries, wishes, feelings we don't express and we are free to express in dreams from our subconcious to relief the tension).
    The third kind of dreams are very rare and are messages from our own soul and they are normally premonitions or a code or symbolic for us to interpret; others are contacts with other souls (dead or alive) who have some messages for us.
    Those dreams are very different from the others because they leave a deep impression on us for a long period, they influence our life during the day changing our mood; they seem so real and vivid that we wake up having the strong feeling of having lived for real or the urge to change something in our life or to have understood finally something that was not clear to us. The messages are not always remembered but they leave a profound sense of peace in our heart. They say it is our astral body actually tripping in the spiritual world even if you are still alive.
    I had only few dreams like those, 4 or 5 in all my life and I remember them very well, one in particular where I thought I was dead and being in heaven because I could move fast as my thought and I had this feeling (not explainable with words) of actually being an individual soul but also the same thing with all there is in the universe we know and I had this feeling of longing to know more and more to go up towards the Light I felt as my Home, the source of every thing and the source where I came from.
    During that so called 'dream' I kept asking myself "how could I forget all this, how could I forget all this..."
    When I woke up it took minutes to recognize my room, the objects in it an to remember who I was and where I was... I remained in a joyful state of mind all day long, like in exstasy.

    A similar magic dream like that I had when I was more or less 23 years old and I fell in love with classical music but expecially with Mozart, my great love. I was almost obsessed by him listening its music every single day and feeling so close to it and his soul...I read all his letters that are gathered in a book called "Letters" and studied his life and music deeply. One night I dream of Amadeus playing the piano in a XVIII century famous residenxce we have here in the main square of downtown Torino; I was the only one inside, I followed the music stepping up the white nice marble stares, I pushed one of the doors open and there he was sitting at the piano. He stopped and smiled at me saying "Finally, you arrived at me, I was waiting for you..." I felt so incredibly honoured and happy my heart almost poped out of my chest then I melted and all melted together in his heavenly music. I woke up with his music in my ears... :))
    If you did not yet, watch the movie "Amadeus" by Milos Forman (1979, 8 academy awards winner), it's beautiful and inspiring expecially towards the end
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Du-rD2QL1Pc

  14. Sabine says:

    :smile: Isabeau, you said, I can't expalin it, but I think you can explain it better than you think!!!! :wink:

    I love studying about the esoteric, dream, spirit world and taking in what all school of thoughts have to say, but if I was more partial to one, i would say I lean more towards the Jungian train of thought.

    Why?

    Rene Descartes says it best, "I think therefore I am." or the longer version: " I have convinced myself that there is nothing in the world — no sky, no earth, no minds, no bodies. Doesn’t it follow that I don’t exist? No, surely I must exist if it’s me who is convinced of something. But there is a deceiver, supremely powerful and cunning whose aim is to see that I am always deceived. But surely I exist, if I am deceived. Let him deceive me all he can, he will never make it the case that I am nothing while I think that I am something. Thus having fully weighed every consideration, I must finally conclude that the statement “I am, I exist” must be true whenever I state it or mentally consider it. "

    Every time we think, see or "know" we are perceiving through our minds. We are the filter.

    So in that sense I think all of our dreams must have elements of ourselves in it. Even if the catalyst or the outside source is another force or entity, we filter and interpret it through our minds. That's why one of the greatest joys in life is when another is able to see something as we see it and one of the worst feelings in the world is to be misunderstood. :wassat:

    Now if the third types of dreams are rare, then I must be a rare individual indeed, because I have LOTS of those kinds of dreams!!!!

    But there is also astral dreaming/ when you are half asleep/half awake, and can sort of control the way the dream goes, and I have those dreams all the time, too. I had them even before I knew what they were.

    It sounds like you have beautiful dreams!!!! God bless you.

    At the end of the day, I think dreams are the medium of the spiritual world, very symbolic and colorful, with a wealth of meaning in little things that must be interpreted. I see God speaking to us through our dreams, expressing thoughts and ideas that we would not be able to understand and accept in our day to day lives, and because we more readily accept ideas and messages from familiar faces, I think that those messages come to us in the form of 1) the thoughts that are most preoccupying our mind (so if you are very interested in something and living, eating, breathing it, it goes to follow that you will dream it and 2)what we are more in-tuned with spiritually at the time. What inspires you, because I believe being inspired is being in-spirit.

    Even this place is sort of an experiment in that. People come here and they bring their own thoughts and ideas and spirits and interpret CCC through that lens. And I am expressing myself and when we meet each other in the middle and "see" the same thing it's WONDERFUL :wub: :heart:

    Look at me going on and on, but i get excited when I think about it! :cheerful:

    There is a school of thought that I like, which goes like this though I'm sure you've heard it. God, in the ultimate desire for self expression, separates his/her (doesn't matter) soul and creates life here on Earth so that s/he can EXPERIENCE life, through self expression. It is the ultimate expression of creativity which brings pleasure. It is why we procreate, why we create anything at all. But in order to experience it, the individual souls must forget where they came from.

    So all of us, infused with the idea that we are separate and different (an illusion that is not true) re-experience ourselves, looking at the world and the events and ideas through our own views and interpretations. But we live with an emptiness we cannot name and only one desire, though unknown and unidentified inside of us, a desire to return back to source, back to "home" so that we can feel whole again.

    A lot of people try to fill that emptiness with things, material and earthly, money, status, property, food, accomplishments, sex, pleasure, praise: We live through the ego. We even look for people to fill the hole, and though people can bring us closer to God, they cannot ever fill the emptiness. We are attracted to things that are spiritual because they make us feel better and we are all escaping from the pain of being separate from God.

    And it's so sad, but lots of us are so entrenched in our egos, we have no idea how to treat those things well, and we end up destroying them (what happened to Michael). So I see all human beings as reflections of source, God -- but not different than one another, but like taking a cup of water from the ocean, part of the whole. Some are so far away from God, and so spiritually dead, it is dangerous to be around them. While others are closer and so beautiful and so full of light we want to get closer and hold onto them forever.

    To me Michael is me, is you, is all of us -- actualized, closer to source, more spiritual, more pure. Different, of course, in the Earthly sense, having had his own unique personality and way of expressing. But he is everything that we can all become if we so choose. Maybe not great dancers or singers but by expressing our own unique gifts that we were given when we were created we can become like Michael, after all we all are Michael. Sometimes I see people putting Michael on a pedestal, almost worshiping him as if he is/was a God but I think it's because we are attracted to those who are closer to God and relate more to them because they are like us. What they are loving and feeling so good about, in my opinion, is the God in Michael. :wub:

    So through out time I see human beings always gravitating to messianic figures who embody the gift that Jesus was -- Jesus was like us but not like us. It's strange how we never learn though? We always end up destroying them. (and the life they live is often painful; its an awful burden being put on a pedestal. It's impossible withstanding that pressure. :sad: ) Or the person ends up destroying themselves. :pinch: Maybe when I die I will understand it better. Why that happens. Is the light of God, the amount that Michael had and others we "worship/admire" too much -- so that one can never fully be happy on this Earth? Like in the Bible, God could never show his face to a human being, or let a human being hear his voice, he had to appear as a burning bush or something else, because it was too much to look upon him/hear him, he told us we would die. And haven't we all felt that. Seen someone who was soooooo beautiful, you almost couldn't look at the person, but you couldn't stop either! :tongue:

    :lol: I don't know!!!! What I do know is I admire and love who Michael was on this earth, and admire his soul, where ever it is, being further along the path. I know in my heart he is in GOOD company! :wub:

    So back to your dreams. At the end of the day, I think the person having the dream is the best interpreter of what the dream means, but I definitely believe dreams are messages from the spiritual world.

    Now of course I've seen Amadeaus!!!!! :wub: :w00t:

    Another blessed soul actualizing GOD! to me you cannot listen to his music and not KNOW that there is God's work there. I just cannot imagine being so blessed!!

    I tell you, I am the ultimate art connoisseur!!!!! I love art!!!! :heart: :wub: So much!!!!

    I love classical music though I have such a hard time remembering the name of ANY song. I used to go to the music store and hum it for the store clerks :lol:

    It used to be hilarious, watching us trying to figure out what song I was talking about.

    Now with downloading music, I'm lost!!!!! :cwy:

  15. isabeau says:

    I have the same feeling about what you say about Michael being me and you... closer to the source...
    funny, this is the whole point of the site http://www.innermichael.com a reference point inside of us, like an example of good qualities we would like to incarnate.
    And missing him so much, without even haveing talked to him once in life, may be means missing and longing to that side of Light in us that he reprsents for us, an exampe to follow, someone we feel it has good human qualities, the best you can imagine in spite of his mistakes and flaws.
    I feel too he is in good company now :)
    Innocent, good people have often a hard time here on Earth probably because they have more not-earthy charateristics and qualities and are not well equipped to live here, they are softer and easly hurt because their nature seem to be... lighter. We have so many examples...
    But most of the times they are also have a strong personality, in a way that they normally achieve a lot here in fulfilling their goal (normally doing a lot for the good of peple, in many different ways).

    About dreams... I appreciate junghian theories a lot, they are very smart and he was a true genius, but I feel they lack something important (James Hillman comes closer to fill the gap, on my opinion).
    I don't like very much Cartesio (Descartes) and his "Penso, dunque sono" (the base of Western thinking "I think thterfore I am") since it is too antropocentric, tipical of his period that in hystory of western philosophy is called Humanism.
    That pholosophy brought to Illuminism few centuries ahead taking people out of medieval way of thinking, and that was very good but it also brought to exploitation of Nature and all the consequences of materialism (called Positivism in philosophy).
    Now I don't want to play cultured.... my goodness, it is just for exchanging ideas :)

  16. Sabine says:

    And missing him so much, without even having talked to him once in life, may be means missing and longing to that side of Light in us that he represents

    It would have to be something like that in my mind, because what else could it be, if one had never shared one moment or word with a person?

    About dreams… I appreciate junghian theories a lot, they are very smart and he was a true genius, but I feel they lack something important

    I would probably drive you crazy in a conversation about philosophy, believe me! :lol: :silly:

    You see I don't believe in one school of thought. I believe in all of them! :smile:

    That's why I don't believe in religion!

    I believe they all have kernels of truth and put together maybe might come close to hinting at the truth, but as long as we are alive I think we will always constantly be in search of the truth. Which is very good, because if one person had all the answers, then what would be left for others to figure out and bring to the table?

    So it is good IMO, for there always to be left a question unanswered, or a thought unexplored, a new view point for us to consider. I think even you mentioned before how intellectuals are very susceptible to falling victim to their ego, once they become "too smart" and think they know everything.

    I am in a perpetual state of wonderment and learning, that's how I like to think of myself! :happy:

    Like for example, you mentioned innermichael before, and I like her but sometimes I think she misses the 'bigger picture". See what I mean!?!?!? :cheerful:

    So I like the idea of "I think therefore I am" but I don't see it as mutually exclusive; that is, I don't believe it substitutes or replaces ideas that may even seem in opposite to it. Which might not make sense to anyone else but me!

    :tongue: I just believe in it all!!!! And like with anything, if taken to the extreme a good idea can become bad. Just like the idea that Michael was perfect or God-like or someone to worship, I think is wrong, and made life for Michael too difficult, as it would be for any human being to bare that type of adulation -- on the other side of such adulation is always devaluation, when the person falls shorts of the adulator's expectations.

    It's so funny, I'm watching Young Frankenstein, which is a funny movie about a "scientist" who thinks he knows it all and uses his intellect for all the wrong reasons. It makes fun of the classic story, so funny :lol: :biggrin:

    Makes me think of the movie in which Robert Dinero (whom I LOOOOVE) plays the creature.

    I've always thought of this quote as haunting. It is one of my favorites. So full of truth for many of us.

    The Creature:

    "I do know that for the sympathy of one living being, I would make peace with all. I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other. " :wub:

  17. isabeau says:

    I would love to go crazy talking about phylosophy with you :))))))))))))))
    I bet it would be fun for both of us because we both are open minded. I get irritated with close minded people because they way of thinking is narrow and I feel claustrophobic after a little while.
    I agree with you about Barbara Kaufmann's web site, the 'bigger picture' is missing there but still, is one of the most original site I found. Of course I agree with you when you talk about extremes... it always bring to fanatism and bad news for everyone as we see, unfortunatly, so often with religion.
    That why I call myself a 'lover', not a fan... ;)
    I don't understand well the last quote... it's a language problem... "If I cannot satisfy the one (what?) I will indulge the other (what?)" I don't get who or what is referring to... language problems...

  18. Sabine says:

    I love to discuss philosophy! I actually think it's fun, but I don't like talking to people who are too opinionated, you know who identify too closely with their thoughts because then they get offended if you challenge their thoughts and it stops being fun!!!

    You know, I don't consider myself a "fan" of Michael either. I really don't know what I am. I'm not too big on labels.

    Now the quote.
    "So che per la simpatia di un essere vivente, vorrei fare la pace con tutti. Ho in me l'amore del calibro di cui si fatica a immaginare e di rabbia del calibro di cui non si creda. Se non posso soddisfare l'uno, io indulgere l'altro. " He's saying he is starved for human compassion. He is saying that he has a lot of love inside of him, and a lot of hatred too. And if he cannot satisfy the love, then he will indulge the hatred. I know a lot of people like that.

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