Why Cowboy Mike had to End . . . . .
farewell COWBOY MIKE
introducing BAD BOY MIKE
Okay, so you wanna know Why Cowboy Mike had to end:
“Well, it’s interesting, I was writing back and forth with Cherry over on the Debbie thread, and one of things I mentioned is that people grow and change and when it is a celebrity, the audience has to accept that and grow and change with that celebrity. But often times the audience resists. Michael spoke about this himself.
“Because I think every child star suffers through this period because you’re not the cute and charming child that you were. You start to grow, and they want to keep you little forever.” ~Michael Jackson
Through out Cowboy Mike, hopefully you’ve seen Michael grow and Sabah, too. You’ve watched their relationship mature from instant fiery attraction to a real partnership, with real issues that they’ve faced and learned to navigate.
Since it has always been my intention to stay very close to the actual events of Michael’s life, and we all know what happens in the upcoming years, in order to give Cowboy Mike a happy ending, I HAD to end it at the time that I did.
Now unfolds a new story: BAD BOY MIKE. Like I’ve told everyone when I was writing Cowboy Mike, I never knew what was going to happen. This is pretty much the same. I’ve seen flashes of the new story, little scenes here or there, but I don’t know what is going to happen. I honestly don’t know if Sabah and Michael end up together. I don’t know how Tatiana, Debbie and Lisa will fit into the story. I can’t even fathom how I’ll write about June Chandler or Janet Arvisos — but if it is meant to be, it will be.
So yes, there will be a sequel, and you will get to see your Bad Boy Mike, but I don’t know when or for how long but thank you all for the love you’ve given myself, of course Michael, Sabah, CCC and this story — it means so much words can’t even express. Let me just let Michael have the final say:
Let us dream of tomorrow where we can truly love from the soul, and know love as the ultimate truth at the heart of all creation. ~ Michael Jackson”
~ Sabine
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Sabine, I concede defeat on this one and admit that the fans on the street and camped outside his house or hotel caused him great physical and mental pain.
I have listened to the points you have made and the evidence you have shown and I have to agree with you.
It makes me feel sad to say it but it is true. :sad:
But the fans on the street, the ones jostling and tearing and nagging him, the ones literally pulling pieces from him and from his life, were simply the physical embodiment of what we ALL did. And, dare I say it, what we continue to do! :sad:
We are STILL looking at those paparazzi photographs, we are still buying up all those autographed goods and we are still listening to private conversations secretly recorded (you, me, ALL of us)~ dare I say, we are doing it NOW, more than ever!!!!!
We have all contributed to his misery. And in a way we’re still doing it.
I hope we continue to learn from our mistakes. I truly do.
Thank you for all your thorough responses to my comments – I really appreciate the time you have taken to discuss things with me. :wub:
And, Michael, I for one am sorry for the part I played in your unhappiness – xx
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Awww Jenny :sad: Don’t sound like that — now I feel bad.
Shamone now, it’s not a battle . . . are you being sarcastic? :pouty:
I wouldn’t say great physical pain and mental pain okay, but some physical pain and emotional distress. And lots of love and good feelings too. It’s not black and white.
It’s like — I don’t know if you have kids, but now that I have teens, looking back at their childhood, though I wouldn’t consciously hurt them for anything in the world, I have to admit that yes, some of my actions has hurt them, and when I do, oh, boy, it feels horrible!!!!!
But also of course I gave them lots of love and did good things for them, too. When we love a person, sometimes despite our best efforts, we also hurt them too. That is common, but I think it’s important to acknowledge and try to make amends whenever possible. So I like to go back and reflect on my behavior so I can learn — re, my kids — not that I plan on having any more kids
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But so that I can say, look, remember when I said this or did this to you — I was wrong, I’m sorry, perhaps, here is why I behaved that way and did this — so they can get some insight, and so I can also say don’t do that to your kids. You know, hopefully stop the cycle.
Girl, you are sooooo right! What are we gonna do????? Personally, sometimes I feel I am hopeless!!! :cheerful:
I’m incredibly curious and just down right nosy!!!!! I WANT to listen to those private conversations that were secretly recorded!!!!!!
I don’t buy the autographed goods cause like I said, a name on a paper don’t mean anything to me, plus I don’t have the money :lol:
But I will say that when they were auctioning up his private stuff I did think to myself, no, that’s not right — it should go to his kids, you know, so they can decided what to do with it
It’s a slow process. Yes, I think we all played our part, and step by step hopefully we can learn how to do better. How do I do better? How am I trying now?
Hmmmmm, let me see. Well, I do not watch reality T.V. if I can help it (my daughter is hooked on that crap). Why? Cause I think it promotes this whole celebrity obsessed culture. Everyone wants to be a celebrity. I especially avoid those E-Hollywood type specials, especially the ones on Michael that just invite all of his enemies to talk about him. When I do see it, I try to point out to my daughter the lies and rumors and propoganda and just how negative it is, which is why she hates watching them with me. :lol:
Of course, I don’t buy tabloid magazines. I try not to join in on the campaign to make his children (or any child) into a celebrity — I’d like them to have as normal and private life as possible. I think talent should be celebrated and applauded, but every child has something about them that is special, IMO. I try not to post pics and stuff of Michael’s kids (but of course they’re soooooo cute :sigh: ) :wub:
Um, I never approach a “star” unless it’s like after a show or performance and there’s indications that he/she is open, otherwise I try to leave them alone and give them space. A friendly wave or a few words that says I appreciate you and your talent I think can convey love, too. Ummmmm, what else?
Oh, I try to vocally protest exploitation of children when I see it, by letters and such — one small voice you know, but together we sound really loud. And I do support organizations that advocate for children’s rights and against the exploitation of children. Most importantly, at least in my household, we don’t glorify stars — I try to make my children understand that they are human just like we are.
I can’t think of more right now. I do try to be better and do better.
I.e. remember the Michael Phelps scandal, when they caught him smoking weed or Chris Brown, how he had that domestic violence episode with his girlfriend well ex, Rihanna, so with my kids I always talk to them about how hypocritical society is to give them such a hard time, and how they are young and that’s what youth is about, making mistakes and you know, just balance out the views.
You know, Jenny, I was thinking of you today. I was watching and MTV show (okay, yeah, kind of reality :lol: ) it was about an organization who went to different High Schools and orchestrated Challenge Day, which was a day when all the children came out and talked about who they were, how they’ve been ostracized in the school, and if they’ve ever felt marginalized, by their race, sex, etc. — what they’re struggling with. Part of the program was just telling everyone what they would know if they REALLY knew you — and so everyone was being so open and honest.
Lots of love in the room. :heart:
The program is geared to create acceptance amongst the students who have fallen into cliques; to do away with prejudice. Anyway, BUCKET OF TEARS all around — it was beautiful to see. Human beings can really be so loving and do so much good when we have good guidance and we’re like minded and also, of course, if we’re open minded. I was thinking this is what I mean — we can try and organize events like this in our churches, our schools, wherever we can, as adults for our youth, to change our collective thinking.
So I want to take this moment out to THANK YOU for having this conversation with me!!!!!! I was a little worried I might offend you or piss you off!!!!!
I hope to God I didn’t but if I did piss you off I’m sorry!!!!!!!
I just wanted to share my thoughts with you and hopefully bring some awareness to a topic that I feel was important to Michael and to myself.
At the end of the day, one thing I know for sure is we both love him like crazy and we both wanted to squeeze him (okay and maybe more too) !!!!!!! (I might not have tried to squeeze him if I ever saw him, but if I ever did, just know that inside I was really wanting to.)
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No! It’s just I’ve been battling with myself on this one and when I look at it from Michael’s point of view the answer is simple really – and it just feels sad. I was in denial and seeking to blame everyone else.
I feel the same. I think being able to say sorry – and really mean it – to your children teaches them to become more reflective too. My kids are 6 and 4, so the day can be chaotic and stressful and I often forget my behaviour can have a profound effect – especially if I’m always rushing or being grumpy.
Ditto – some of the stuff up for auction were actually gifted by Michael. I would not try to profit from a gift!!! How can people do this??? I might give something away to charity if we really can’t use it though!
Yeah! My daughter is becoming a little interested now in popular culture – so I will also try to balance out what she sees and ensure she’s informed of how the media works to exploit celebrities in order to profit for themselves. The meida’s concern for Rihanna’s injuries were phoney – it was all about selling newspapers, not offering any support to either the perpetrator or the victim. Only proper journalists who take the time to investigate stories and offer detailed commentaries are worth reading. Sadly, most people can’t be bothered to take the time and like their “news” bite-size.
NOT at all! I enjoy debating issues – especially when people take the time and care to clarify their points and illustrate their ideas – as you do! I think this is an interesting medium – and wonderful that two people on opposite sides of the world can have such a lively and thought-provoking debate. One of my regrets is that I didn’t do this when Michael was alive. There are so many positive things going on now in his name – I think that is because we are going through a very reflective time – part of the grieving process, I suppose.
LOL – I will have to content myself by reading your story instead – the next best thing to getting to squeeze him.
I know you are taking a well-deserved break from it, but I’ll be checking in regularly.
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Awwww, Jenny, YAY! I”m happy! :wub: :heart:
:cheerful: Well deserved break -ha!!!! – okay, this is what I was doing all night, creating the Cowboy Mike cover!
Do you like it?
Since you have a six year old, you can picture me waiting with my big eyes, ready to jump up and down if you say yes :lol: :silly:
YES!!!!!! :lol:
I love the photo of Michael on horseback – embracing life as he always did :biggrin: Perfect! Look at his pink jeans – too cute!
And Uhhh those come to bed eyes :blush:
(not sure about Ola as Sabah though :pouty: – I imagine they are just as pretty as each other, but Ola is too recognizable)
Otherwise, I love it
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ignore my comment about Ola and Sabah – I’m just insanely jealous of both women :cwy:
sorry!!!
while ia ma sad to see Cm ended, he had to grow as you said Sabine so now i look forward to reading about a much older wiser BBM AND GIRL JUST THINK WITH AGE COMES WISDOM KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCE :w00t:
IMAGINE THE EXPERIENCE BBM is now going to unleash now that he knows his girl desires just as much as he does . now i think he’s gonna let loose and WE GET TO READ ABOUT IT ALL!
I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YA’LL BUT I’M SIZZLING, plus i think these stories give mike a quiet dignity that the paps and media NEVER gave him
they were so busy looking for and r printing s%$& that the true story about the man WAS never TOLD.
one only has to listen to his music and watch him dance and gyrate those marvelous hips and that tight butt to know that the man was a hopeless romantic so much so that when HE found the woman of his dreams they NEVER LET HIM BE in real life. so in these fantasies he is happy in love , he’s free to be however he wants to be because that was not so easily afforded him for real
this story and many others like it are about dreams, escapism, magic, the very thing the man himself embodied, things we all wished he had just a small fraction of however remote it was not because he deserved it but because as a human it was a right that for him was not easily achievable because he was larger than life :ermm:
so we dream, and i thank you Sabine for allowing me to share your thoughts in dreaming BIG for FF michael with a happy ending but stay true to his real life… :wub:
do so hope i made sense :smile:
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mike NEVER asked to be worshiped , in fact he felt uncomfortable sometimes about all the adoration but he embraced it because it gave him an opportunity few have and that is to help those less fortunate them himself
we [[humankind] put him on a pedestal, and when he tried living up to that appointment we the same [[humankind]] that elevated him to that lofty position lambasted, ridiculed and tortured him to no ended
i guarantee, that if mike had selfishly made his millions like some do and put it up his nose or spend it on trivialities like most millionaires even billionaires do he would not have made so much enemies like he did
but just for the fact that he was showing them up ,that it was just not about him , that he genuinely cared about his fellow man, about the planet, about children, he was mocked! why what was so bad about what he was doing?
N.O.T.H.I.N.G. EXCEPT HE DARED TO SHOW HOW HUMAN BEINGS MUST TRULY BE ….S.E.L.F.LE.S.S
WHAT DOES THAT TELL US ABOUT US AS A PEOPLE WHEN KINDNESS AND COMPASSION IS MOCKED RIDICULED AND JEERED AND MADE FUN OF LIKE MJ WAS?
FOOD FOR THOUGHT PEOPLE, FOOD FOR THOUGHT!!!!!
It’s true. You know, hundreds of years, and humankind has not learned or changed — we do this to EVERYONE we love and admire!!!!!
We’re like a child with a doll we really love — we just tear it apart! :cwy:
Well, I read once the Michael served as our mirror, and I guess when your mirror is doing something that you know you should be doing, some people want to smash it, so that they can’t see that.
:sad: :cwy: It says we are in pretty bad shape, Dee! Especially when you see violence and meanness glorified.
Jenny, girl, that’s not Ola, that’s Sabah! You can hardly see that woman’s face! She could be anyone!
But don’t be jealous!!!!!! :wub: :wub:
Sabah… Don’t worry.. I know you will do fine with Bad Boy Mikey Bear :) hehe
Thank you for the access Sabine!!
keep up the good work :smile: :heart:
Well… everything must come to an end sooner or later… let’s see what happens next ;)
:reading: Well I finally finished reading…and oh my oh my..
Sabine I don’t know my thoughts are are like all in motion to the point I just don’t know where they start and where they end.
But I’ll just give my comments on the whole as to what I thought. YOU….are an amazing writer by the way. Let me start of by complimenting you.
I just loved how their relationships seems so real. I don’t know if its just my imagination or what but I thought Michael loves Sabah more than she loves him. I mean he’s just seems more passionate…dunno, but I personally love that in a guy, I think its so romantic. Like when Michael thought Sabah went missing and he fainted and passed out at the thought of her being missed or kidnapped. Just loved it.
Throughout the chapters, as we moved along the timeline of the 80’s keeping in line with the events that took place in real life in Michael’s life, I couldn’t help but wonder what was going to happen, once we entered the 90’s that is if your story will go that far. I mean the ugly realities, I don’t think I need to mention them, and then Lisa and Debbie entering the picture. The way Michael and Sabah’s love story is going now and feeling so real and beautiful, and so right, I don’t see how there could be room for any other woman
I would have loved for Michael to have someone like this in his life, but I was wondering Sabine, I don’t know where up until you plan to write but how will you handle other women entering Michael’s life, and his real life children?
:hmm: Then…..a very strange thought occurred to me
I thought what if Sabah indeed was real….what if she really had existed, then who she would have been in Michael’s life. Until now she is hidden in the story from the rest of the world, and who in Michael’s real life fits that description and who do we know of. Well its the person we all know very little about or rather nothing. That’s happens to be Blanket’s mother.
Could it be that Sabah is Blanket’s mother???
It was this woman with whom Michael may have had relationship and had blanket if we have to give logic and try to make sense out of where Blanket came from. Who else could have remained hidden this long?
But if I ask the above question then several more pop up because of it. How will Michael justify marrying Lisa and going on to have kids with Debbie…oh God! The thought of it. I for one personally like to believe that maybe the first two aren’t Michael’s biologically, and Blanket is the only one out of the 3 that actually looks anything like Michael at all. I always believed that a child should be born out of love.
There were so many questions concerning the future of this relationship that kept popping up in my mind, and I thought were up until will Sabah tread the path with Michael? Or will the story become more unreal as we enter the 90’s and just eliminate alot of the terrible things that happened.
well more later
Well first let me say
:thankyou: From the bottom of my heart. It’s nice to get comments like these! :wub:
I love that you’re thinking of the story and the characters and wondering where they go from here.
I mean of course you have BBM to read.
I have seen glimpes of the future, not complete scenes and I have answers to many of your questions. You know Lisa, Debbie, all of that I’ve seen very clearly . . . of course, I can’t say a word!
I wish I WILL have a chance to write it. I’ve been feeling very down lately and disillusioned with the story, like the whole purpose of my writing is not being received or heard. Its probably just me, but I am only interested in humanizing Michael to the public, that’s really it.
Did Michael love Sabah MORE than she loved him? Michael loved very, very deeply, and Sabah had a lot of trouble showing how much she loved, so maybe that’s why it seems that way.
Can love be measured though, when it’s between two people so devoted to each other? I hope at least I’ve shown that much. Yes there are ugly, ugly realities in our story of Michael to come, but this is another story.
Maybe we can fashion for ourselves a different ending?
By the way, I always think of all of Michael’s children as his. You know perfect strangers can look alike and siblings can look completely different from each other, but more than anything, Michael raised those children, so they are his and he is their father. Period. I’m very sure that mIchael loved those children completely. As for Debbie :pouty:
Let me not comment about her.
I’d love to hear more! And also what you think of BBM!!!! :silly: