The New & Improved CCC – a note frm Sabine
“Welcome to the new and improved CCC. While on the surface it seems that not much has changed, there has been some very important modifications.
“A big part of being an actress specifically is feeling entitled to your artistic opinion, feeling that it means something, and being able to stand by it.” ~ Maggie Gyllenhaal
“I would like to start off by saying, I am an artist. That’s part of who I am, not all of who I am but a part. Writing is just one of my artistic expressions. It is not a hobby or just something I do to past the time. It’s is something I HAVE to do. It is very BIG, personal, expression of a part of me.
“Poetry is the work of poets, not of peoples or communities; artistic creation can never be anything but the production of an individual mind.” ~ Lascelles Abercrombie
“My sole and only desire in writing both Tame the Wild Cobra and first Cowboy Mike and then Bad Boy Mike was to explore and illustrate, not only the issues that Michael struggled with in his life time, but the ways in which he might have what I wished he had: True love, not by avoiding or ignoring the circumstances and problems presented to him in his life, but by, through small decisions and different choices, facing them head on. I desired to help people understand Michael, as I saw him.
“I invited readers who loved Michael and also wanted that for him to join me on this journey and escape with me into this world that I had created. If I can be credited for anything, it’s making the story so exciting and so much fun. CCC became a great place to hang out and chat and talk about the stories. But I started to notice that certain members of CCC were trying, in small and different ways, to impose their views and ideas about who they thought Michael was, how this world should look, how the love interest of Michael should act and basically how MY story should be written — how CCC should be.
“The music is a personal expression, like art. It is something that you like doing that comes from within, and is an expression that comes from God. That is why artists are beautiful and why people who copy are not really artistic.”
After months of watching this behavior escalate, after seeing a clique being formed on CCC and after having my restated purpose and intention ignored, I opted to end those memberships and then – then things got ugly. One person refused to go. I spent hours watching them attempt to log in over and over. When they succeeded, they put up a taunting email to let me know that they’d made it into CCC despite my blocking them. They sent emails to myself and other members claiming that people were stalking them on CCC and then the people became one “man”. The story became more and more unbelievable and outrageous. I reached out to other active members for support, not for them to actually do anything, but just to be a witness to the craziness that was going on. Even though some had emailed me to talk about their personal problems, to ask for advice, even though they’d come to CCC for prayers and support when they were feeling down, I was actually even given the coined apathetic response in not so many words, “I don’t want to get involved. I just want to read the stories.” But of course, as you can imagine, I can’t write in such an environment.
“My concern is to continue respecting my work as I’ve done since I began as an actor and I could only do that if I’m strong enough to keep on doing what I think best in an artistic way.” ~ Javier Bardem
So I’ve decided I will no longer share Bad Boy Mike, Cowboy Mike and Tame the Wild Cobra with the general public. I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression, who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is and who let me know that; people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally. People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story; who won’t want to slit her throat and throw her under the bus just because Michael loves her. People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex. People who are really interested in reading a love story. People who are open enough to root for Michael to make it with someone he loves. Not someone perfect. Not some boring, inconceivable door mat whom Michael could do with as he wished but a strong, beautiful, interesting woman whom HE could love, and who, though not perfect, loved him back, faults and all. In Romeo and Juliet we are rooting for the couple to make it!!!! I’ve never heard of a person who wanted Romeo to realize that Juliet is too young and immature and decided, AFTER reading the story, to write a story starring Romeo and themselves. When a director remakes a movie he does so because he LOVVVVVED the first movie. It is an act of homage and respect. When a true writer writes a story, s/he does so because s/he is inspired to write the story, not because s/he wants to compete with another writer or another story.
I want to make it clear here, I’m not saying that every writer who is writing Michael Jackson fan fiction is competing with the other. There are some very talented writers who are expressing their gift, some who are going through the stages of grief, some who are just having fun. I am speaking SPECIFICALLY about the few members who I’ve encountered who were doing what I’ve described above, and I choose not to associate with that negative energy.
I achieved my goal in Cowboy Mike which is why the story became so popular and I have continued in that spirit with Bad Boy Mike. In a more loose and fantasy environment, this is what Tame the Wild Cobra story creates as well except, it’s just more fun. And so I’d like to take this moment to express my eternal thanks to the treasured souls who have made this year plus experience both rewarding and enjoyable, without their comments and feedback to give me continued inspiration, I would have most certainly closed down CobraCrackCentral for good. And wouldn’t that have been a shame, because . . . . the stories aren’t nearly finished. I’d like to finish them, and so I am creating the environment I need to make that possible.
If you have any thoughts, comments, please feel free to express them. I believe in honest, open communication as long as it’s respectful. I’m still working on the site and giving access to as many positive people as I can, but it’s going to take some time because I have over 1,000 members!!!! The easiest way to do it is to look through the comments. If you feel I’ve missed you leave a comment here.
Merry Christmas ~ Sabine
“And doing so you can recreate yourself, and you can also come up with something that is not only original and creative and artistic, but also maybe even decent, or moral if I can use words like that, or something that’s like basically good.”~Lester Bangs
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Glad I read this ! You are a true artist Girll <3
– Leah :heart:
Thank you! You’re awesome!
Ooo, Leah, E.K., I can see your pretty avatars! You are so welcome!
Hey Diva. Firstly, I just want to thank you for sharing your amazing talent with us. It’s been awhile since I have had the chance to catch up on your stories, I had just started reading Cowboy Mike before the site moved from blogger to here. I wasn’t aware of the drama, but I’m so glad that you decided to keep your stories going because you truly are an amazing writer. Your ability to embody the characters leaves me breathless, and the way you are able to transport the reader into the world of the story shows your unique talent. As a writer of MJ fan fic myself, I know how long it takes to a chapter and how feedback is appreciated. I can also appreciate your mature outlook on fan fiction – I feel the same way. I hope to be able to continue reading your stories and discuss the characters and their actions should you allow access. Thank you again for sharing your passion for writing…it definitely keeps him alive in spirit. :)
Hey Violet or should I call you dangerous?
Welcome and thank you so much for sharing. You’re all set now!!!
hey sabine ! :) thanks for sharing your creativity and wonderful talents with us and also allowing us a way of escapism through your stories and i absolutly 100% agree with why u have decided to do this lol i read all of cowboy mike before the stories became private and i must say it was the best story i have ever read and i read ALOT lol so i hope to continue to read your stories with hope that u grant me access to them :) again i thank u for all you’ve done to keep MJ alive through your stories :)
Hey Iclbkids, you read all of Cowboy Mike and never said anything!!!!!
:w00t:
I hope that doesn’t continue to be the case, so I’m going to go ahead and approve you. Thanks for the appreciating my work and letting me know!!! :smile:
I don’t blame you for blocking that kind of behavior. Some people can’t handle the fact that he deserved to be loved in the way you are expressing this in the stories. You have made him seem like a real true, caring and focused gentleman in the most sensitve ways and it is a pleasure to read. When I realized the site was blocked, I became quite concerned due to the fact that I really enyoy not just the stories but also the playlist. Like I have said so many times, your writing style is very uniique and I wish there was a way your material could be published – it is a definite masterpiece and deserves all the positive credit. If I am not able to access this site anymore, then I will always feel better knowing that I had a chance to read the best story about a well loved and talented man as he will always be. Thanks Sabine as always for your time and talent.
Thank Philisia for reading this and understanding.
I was all set to approve you but then you wrote ten mins after you wrote this:
Okay, just so you know there are no administrators, it’s just me and are you saying you don’t understand any more about the internet bullies and trolls I speak about in this thread? I’m confused!!!! :wassat:
Okay .. my reply doesn’t seem to appear, so I’m going to try again ^^
Hey there, sorry I didn’t comment for such a long time, but school and stuff kept me really busy..
I don’t even know if you remember me :D just know that I didn’t forget about your stories .. I still love them!!!
So uhhm .. if memory serves me correctly I had access on the private stories, but now I don’t. So I wanted to ask if maybe I could get access again :blush:
Hello Sabine – This is my first time commenting, but certainly not my first time visiting. I’m more of a lurker, than an active poster. But when someone has the talent that you do, it should be honored. So, I’m here to say that I do love your stories and they are the ultimate escape for me. Things in life can be hard sometimes, and reading your stories take me far away and into a world with Michael in it. It doesn’t get much better than that for me :tongue: I’ve read the Cowboy Mike stories in the past (as well as some others). They are all terrific, but Cowboy Mike was my favorite! It gives me butterflies and things when I read about Sabah and Mike!
I was totally unaware of what happened here to make it restricted (which is so unfortunate), as I stopped visiting for a while because I had read most stories. And then I received an email in my inbox inviting me to come back not to long ago… so here I am. :biggrin:
If I could get access to read Cowboy Mike and the other stories, I would appreciate it SO much. It’s truly a pleasure reading your work, and I’ll try to be a more active commentor. :wink: Thank you!
Hi Christy!
Lately all I’m getting is requests to read but where are all the readers? :lol:
I don’t need lurkers to magically become active commentators, but I do appreciate comments telling me why a person loved a particular chapter and what they loved about it!!!!
So hopefully I will hear from you again! And thanks for all the feedback! :heart:
Hey Lovely, of course I remember you! Enjoy :kissing:
Thank you so much! I’ll be reading and commenting very soon.
That’s great Christy! Look forward to it! :smile:
Hmm .. sorry to bother you again, Sabine.
I still don’t have access … I thought maybe I’d have to wait some time, but apparently some weeks weren’t enough ^^
Right after I saw you wrote ‘Enjoy’ I tried to continue reading TTWC .. and the day after, too .. but I couldn’t .. so I’m asking again for access ^^
:blush: well .. I hope this isn’t too much trouble ..
:happy: thanks
Try again now :smile:
Thanks so much :kissing:
It works now which means I’m not gonna lose time and start reading immediately :)
sooo I haven’t been here for about a year now…and I just realized how much I miss CM and TTWC!! I really need to get acces to these stories, I looooved cowboy mike and I looved ttwc, and im sure Im going to love bbm too! :)
Hiiiiii Sally. Girl, you’ve had so many names on here, I’m glad you decided to stick with Sally!!!!
You have A LOT of catching up to do!!!! :tongue:
Hey Sabine i i haven’t been on in a long time. so i log in and it wont let me view the private chapters it says i don’t have access. Please Help :heart: Mari J
Hi Mari
It’s nice to hear from you again. Of course I can help you!!!!! I’ve restored the access, enjoy :kissing:
Hi Sabine! IrisUvea here. Seems like I’m denied access to the private chapters yet again. So sorry if you have to approve me again. Pretty please!!!! I’ve been waiting for the new chapter for so long!
I can’t express how much I appreciate your stories. You inspire and encourage the readers to love unconditionally. Hard, but not impossible. That’s what I feel right now. How to shift from caring to loving. How to accept imperfections and see them not as hindrances but reasons to love the other person more.
Awww shucks, with a comment like that, how can you still be standing OUTSIDE — come in, come in!!!!!! Don’t forget to lock the door behind you!!! :tongue:
Now, thank you honey, that really IS the point. I am a strong proponent of unconditional love, which I think is the healthiest, and in this story, I’d like Michael to have some of that!!! Now if anyone becomes inspired and reflects upon how much more they can manifest that in their own lives, wow, that’s a beautiful thing!!! Thanks for letting me know you get it! :smile: :heart:
Wow, thanks!!! Here’s to unconditional love!
Cheers!!! :smile:
Thank you so so so much im sure ill be able to read and comment tomorrow
Love Mari J
Ooo, I look forward to reading what you have to say!!!! :smile:
Hey Sabine i’m trying to read BBM and it still saying i don’t have access please help
-Much Love Mari J
Hey Sabine! I remember reading cowboy mike back in like ’09 and being a DAILY visitor since then lol. But I somehow drifted away from this site and I’d just like to know if I could have access so I can catch up on bad boy mike :w00t: I’ve always enjoyed the connection you created between Michael and Sabah and I really need to catch up haha :blush: I think I’m still at when they took their vacation to Hawaii :whistle:
You are an amazing writer Sabine and I hope you never stop creating! thank you for all of the amazing stories you’ve created so far :biggrin:
HI Kelly!
Nice to see you back here, though I don’t think I had the pleasure! :smile:
:wassat: Wow, ’09 huh? Gosh, it’s been two years already!!!!
:ermm: But wait a minute, you mean you logged in here daily and read and enjoyed and NEVER said a word?
Shame on you! :tongue:
Well my name on here used to be “Kaye” but that was waaaay back in the day lmao. And I would leave comments here and there :blush: :ninja:
ITS BEEN FOREVER! LOL
Oh, Kaye!
You should have said that. Were you spending some more time over at Dangerous Fantasies? :lol: :biggrin: :silly:
LMAOLMAOLMAO!!!!! :face: that’s hilarious! I remember that one story about Michael filling up the bathtub with whipped cream? :getlost: Oh my gosh smh
And I’m proud to say that I have officially relapsed on CobraCrack :w00t: !!
So Sabine, my dealer, can you hook a returning customer up? :wink:
I’m proud to say I never read one! :tongue:
Don’t trip over your feet running through the halls :silly:
Hi sabine
I’m a huge MJ fan from india! I really love your stories and I think you have a great talent for capturing something special about Michael’s life and art in your writing, in a way that makes it feel so personal. I remember reading some of the Cowboy Mike stories on your website when they were public, and I thought they were great. Really fun, and well written; that was a while ago and I got caught up with school and other things. Anyway, I was happy to rediscover your site and I’d love to read the new stories you’ve written! I really do appreciate artistry and unfortunately I’m not much of a commenter but I understand how much important feedback is to any artist and I really appreciate the effort that goes into what you do. The stories, the pictures, the playlists… everything is incredible. Thanks for sharing :smile:
Hello Gauri!
Are you really in india! :heart: Yay!!!! I love hearing from people over seas, especially if they are great fans.
Wanna hear a funny joke. I get messages from people who say, I love CBM, I started reading but I never finished it, please give me access so I can find out what happens
:ermm: Then the first chapter they go to?
BBM. :pouty:
:lol: :biggrin: :tongue: I swear!!!
Anyway, thanks for reading and for commenting. Music to my ears! Enjoy!
Hi Sabine :)
I’m not sure how well this is showing up…its like purple on purple and I dont know how to change the color. My name is Cathy, I’m a 55 year old RN and grandmother of five. I’ve been a Michael Jackson fan since the seventies. He was an incredible gift from God to the planet, and I feel blessed to have been alive during his short stay with us. We need the light and love he shone on us :) I pray he has found the peace he so deserves. I love your site especially the pictures and songs, and I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with such negative energy. I would love to read your stories about Michael…especially if he can finally find true love, and be happy. Thats all I’ve ever wanted for him. Thank you :)
Haha I want to read both stories now! Thanks for the access! and yes I am in india :)
You should really finish CBM first, since it’s really one story — BBM continues from where CBM leaves off.
Tame the wild cobra is my favorite, though :heart:
YOu welcome!
:lol: It’s more like blue on purple, but now it should be showing up fine!!! It only does that when you’re typing for some reason. It’s supposed to turn into white. I don’t know why it stopped; I’ll fix it later.
N e way!!!! welcome! a life long Michael fan, since my favorite era — I love me some 70s Michael!!!!!
I agree w/ you that Micheal was an incredible gift from God. It’s nice to hear someone say so!!!!!! (Often I get OMG, he was sooooooo hawwwttt).
:silly: well, yes, he was that too!!! :tongue:
I am very happy to say that my site is now negative/drama free (knock on wood) though a lot more quiet. . . . well, sometimes that’s the price you have to pay.
Negative people are very loud! :lol: :smile:
Micheal does find true love here, so if you ever wanted that for him, you are in the right place. Enjoy! :smile: :heart:
Thank you! I’ll get started right now :tongue:
Thank you Sabine :)
Are the stories continuation of each other, or separate? Should I start with a particular one? Oh, I have no problem saying it….Michael was and is the hottest man on the planet. Period….whatever the decade. I watched his 2007 visit to the army base in Japan and could not believe a middle age man putting on a pair of glasses would melt me into a puddle….but, of course he was so much more than physical beauty, he changed the world. We love you More, Michael <3
Cathy! Can you believe you’re the first person that has asked me that question!!! :w00t:
Well, I love Tame the Wild Cobra, because despite it’s cheesy title :tongue:
It’s a great story that includes magic, fantasy, and all the people who were a part of Michael’s life, his friends and enemies! And I get to make them pay!!!! :devil:
If you want to read BBM, you really should, must, have to read CBM first to understand BBM, because it is a sequel and picks up right where CBM leaves off.
So just so you know, I never planned to write any MJ novel!!! So CBM starts off very lusty and sexy, and it goes into a deeper, fuller and complex plot as you keep reading. Well, it took on a life of its own, and everyone loves it, for which I am humbly thankful!
It’s fun to share! :smile: :biggrin:
p.s. Michael physcially was a dream boat :wub:
*sigh* But more than his physical beauty, his heart was . . . . wow! I mean truthfully, it’s his heart that made him so cute, sexy, appealing in the first place!!!!!
And any way, you can’t separate the two!
I completely agree….everything beautiful about Michael kind of all runs together. His eyes, his smile and his heart and soul were just devastating. Your body of work is brilliant, and the absolute best I’ve read.
Sorry that posted incomplete…..I was going to ask…do you have any plans to become published?
Gee thanks!!!!! :w00t: Well, I am published, :lol: It’s a children’s book though. You’re probably talking about this story, though :silly:
I would have to change a lot, or get permission from the Estate so that they don’t sue me!!!!! But one never knows what the future might bring!
Hi Sabine. Okay, I’ve found the proper place to leave my comment. I was totally unaware of most of this drama. Thinking back, I can remember what must have been the first seeds of it, but I just ignored the negative energy and focused on Michael’s and Sabah’s L.O.V.E.! I was (and still am) all into the stories…I’ve had some challenges in the past year. In any case, I would love to continue Michael’s love affairs. You know how I feel about Prince Michael!!!! I’m glad you didn’t give up on the site. It would have been a shame to lose all this. I mean that sincerely.
PJ
Hey honey! Nice to “see” a familiar face!!!!!
I bet you could see the seeds!!!! You always struck me as someone who was very perceptive. I”m so sorry you’ve had a challenging year. Hopefully you’ve got a better handle on it .
Well, girl, as you can see, it’s quiet here but I’ve decided I prefer peace over chaos; quality over quantity and content over fluff!
:biggrin: As you can imagine, with all the time and work that goes into running a website, the site is a place for me to enjoy too, and it wasn’t fair to me that I wasn’t enjoying it. I’m happy I was able to make it a nice place for me again. :wub:
Now Prince Michael needs some more fans so wooooo-hooooo :w00t:. I’m about to put up a new preview so you’re just in time.
As for wanting it all, ooooooookay, you asked for it!!!!!
Thanks for your heartfelt words!!! :smile: :wub:
Hello Sabine
I have read the story cowboy Mike in the beginning of the year and I could not stop reading, unfortunately I was unable to continue reading and stopped just before bad boy mike. When I returned I realized I was unable to access the stories and read them- so what do I do? I join immediately!
I am an aspiring scriptwriter, which s not exactly the same as novel writing BUT i do understand how it feels to have your art disrespected. when you believe in something so much it hurts when someone is unable to respect and enjoy it. There is always going to be that group of fans who are manic.
Personally I hate when people put themselves in the story as Michael’s love interest, its sorta creepy- feels like I’m a stalking voyeur.
Now, i don’t talk much cause I’m a shy person, so please don’t expect me too always comment, because I only say something if I feel its important but I do read and enjoy your stories. I just happen to be a silent reader and i will try to say something! (Hope you understand).
Anyway, I think you have an absolutely fabulous site, I enjoy your stories tremendously!
L.O.V.E
Chanel
:bye: Hi Chanel,
Are you really in Africa!!! :wub: Thanks for taking the time out to comment and let me know you’re out there – I appreciate that soooooo much and I also appreciate you understanding my plight, and I so agree, in any medium you’ll have the people who go to extremes.
So you’re an aspiring scriptwriter, that’s so cool. I love movies!!!! I mean reallllly love them, as much as I love books. I’ve always thought about writing scripts, because dialogue comes so easy to me, but I don’t like the Hollywood atmosphere too much :pouty:
:yes: I totally understand where you’re coming from here. I think it has to do with the intention behind writing the story, and how the author approaches Michael. Every writer puts a little of themselves into any character they create, and they borrow from the personalities of people they know but like you’ve said, there are some who take it to a whole ‘another level!!!
:wacko:
Well, I’ve gone ahead and given you access, but would definitely appreciate a little comment here and there (although I respect that you’re shy)!
Hope to hear from you again! :smile: