20
Dec
2010
The New & Improved CCC – a note frm Sabine
“Welcome to the new and improved CCC. While on the surface it seems that not much has changed, there has been some very important modifications.
“A big part of being an actress specifically is feeling entitled to your artistic opinion, feeling that it means something, and being able to stand by it.” ~ Maggie Gyllenhaal
“I would like to start off by saying, I am an artist. That’s part of who I am, not all of who I am but a part. Writing is just one of my artistic expressions. It is not a hobby or just something I do to past the time. It’s is something I HAVE to do. It is very BIG, personal, expression of a part of me.
“Poetry is the work of poets, not of peoples or communities; artistic creation can never be anything but the production of an individual mind.” ~ Lascelles Abercrombie
“My sole and only desire in writing both Tame the Wild Cobra and first Cowboy Mike and then Bad Boy Mike was to explore and illustrate, not only the issues that Michael struggled with in his life time, but the ways in which he might have what I wished he had: True love, not by avoiding or ignoring the circumstances and problems presented to him in his life, but by, through small decisions and different choices, facing them head on. I desired to help people understand Michael, as I saw him.
“I invited readers who loved Michael and also wanted that for him to join me on this journey and escape with me into this world that I had created. If I can be credited for anything, it’s making the story so exciting and so much fun. CCC became a great place to hang out and chat and talk about the stories. But I started to notice that certain members of CCC were trying, in small and different ways, to impose their views and ideas about who they thought Michael was, how this world should look, how the love interest of Michael should act and basically how MY story should be written — how CCC should be.
“The music is a personal expression, like art. It is something that you like doing that comes from within, and is an expression that comes from God. That is why artists are beautiful and why people who copy are not really artistic.”
After months of watching this behavior escalate, after seeing a clique being formed on CCC and after having my restated purpose and intention ignored, I opted to end those memberships and then – then things got ugly. One person refused to go. I spent hours watching them attempt to log in over and over. When they succeeded, they put up a taunting email to let me know that they’d made it into CCC despite my blocking them. They sent emails to myself and other members claiming that people were stalking them on CCC and then the people became one “man”. The story became more and more unbelievable and outrageous. I reached out to other active members for support, not for them to actually do anything, but just to be a witness to the craziness that was going on. Even though some had emailed me to talk about their personal problems, to ask for advice, even though they’d come to CCC for prayers and support when they were feeling down, I was actually even given the coined apathetic response in not so many words, “I don’t want to get involved. I just want to read the stories.” But of course, as you can imagine, I can’t write in such an environment.
“My concern is to continue respecting my work as I’ve done since I began as an actor and I could only do that if I’m strong enough to keep on doing what I think best in an artistic way.” ~ Javier Bardem
So I’ve decided I will no longer share Bad Boy Mike, Cowboy Mike and Tame the Wild Cobra with the general public. I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression, who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is and who let me know that; people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally. People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story; who won’t want to slit her throat and throw her under the bus just because Michael loves her. People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex. People who are really interested in reading a love story. People who are open enough to root for Michael to make it with someone he loves. Not someone perfect. Not some boring, inconceivable door mat whom Michael could do with as he wished but a strong, beautiful, interesting woman whom HE could love, and who, though not perfect, loved him back, faults and all. In Romeo and Juliet we are rooting for the couple to make it!!!! I’ve never heard of a person who wanted Romeo to realize that Juliet is too young and immature and decided, AFTER reading the story, to write a story starring Romeo and themselves. When a director remakes a movie he does so because he LOVVVVVED the first movie. It is an act of homage and respect. When a true writer writes a story, s/he does so because s/he is inspired to write the story, not because s/he wants to compete with another writer or another story.
I want to make it clear here, I’m not saying that every writer who is writing Michael Jackson fan fiction is competing with the other. There are some very talented writers who are expressing their gift, some who are going through the stages of grief, some who are just having fun. I am speaking SPECIFICALLY about the few members who I’ve encountered who were doing what I’ve described above, and I choose not to associate with that negative energy.
I achieved my goal in Cowboy Mike which is why the story became so popular and I have continued in that spirit with Bad Boy Mike. In a more loose and fantasy environment, this is what Tame the Wild Cobra story creates as well except, it’s just more fun. And so I’d like to take this moment to express my eternal thanks to the treasured souls who have made this year plus experience both rewarding and enjoyable, without their comments and feedback to give me continued inspiration, I would have most certainly closed down CobraCrackCentral for good. And wouldn’t that have been a shame, because . . . . the stories aren’t nearly finished. I’d like to finish them, and so I am creating the environment I need to make that possible.
If you have any thoughts, comments, please feel free to express them. I believe in honest, open communication as long as it’s respectful. I’m still working on the site and giving access to as many positive people as I can, but it’s going to take some time because I have over 1,000 members!!!! The easiest way to do it is to look through the comments. If you feel I’ve missed you leave a comment here.
Merry Christmas ~ Sabine
“And doing so you can recreate yourself, and you can also come up with something that is not only original and creative and artistic, but also maybe even decent, or moral if I can use words like that, or something that’s like basically good.”~Lester Bangs
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"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
(Spike to Buffy, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.)
"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
"----->His intelligence is instinctual and emotional, like a child’s. If any artist loses that childlikeness, you lose a lot of creative juice. So Michael creates around himself a world that protects his creativity”. ~ Jane Fonda
girl you know that i am always here.. (whenever i can get to a computer) and i will never let you down. i am really here for you, i enjoy all of your stories it literally takes me to another world.. i want you to continue your stories because theyre more than just stories, its a journey, an adventure, like michael said…
perfect girl!!!!! just know that im always here and checking out for new installations! maybe i dont comment that much (you know that) but you know how much i love michael and how much i love your stories! and i appreciate your changes! you know from the beginning i always wish you’d do that one day! your stories are too holy to be publicly accessible and i love all the conditions you have pointed out! i feel the same way.
stay the way you are sabine! i wish you and your lovely family a merry christmas. :wub: :wub: :wub:
Sabine,
I am truly sorry you had to experience such torment and ugliness by those who some how missed who you truly are and why you created this blog. It is very unforunate that they twisted your loving intent of opening your soul and sharing your gift, your art of something so beautiful and so personal to something ugly. It deeply saddens me that you had to experience it here, a place that was created out love. Please know my friend, I support you and your art here, everywhere….. today and always! Much Love xoxoxoxoo
hey there lady!
I love the quote by Abercrombie..
I’m glad you are expressing your feelings and showing what CCC is exactly all about! :tongue:
Take it easy sabine and enjoy holidays with the family :biggrin:
Hey,pleasee let me be a reader!! I hardly ever comment because I know how crazy expressing ur opinion about Mike publicly can be.I’m a member in other MJ sites too , I’m never a troublemaker so I don’t want to participate in all that drama.
Ur site is different.You present a complete story,with feelings,texture,sounds,image.It’s an almost true life story about how things in MJ’s life should be.I want to see Michael succeed in love.So please please pleasee let me be a reader because my imagination is not as good as yours and i cant make up a story about MJ in my mind..(k)
Oh Sabine… I am SO very sorry to read this… But this is the internet world, that is a copy of the world out there, you can meet any kind of people, positive, indifferent and negative people.
People able to empathize, able to be thankful for what they receive and give back, selfish people, generous people, material or spiritual people, well balanced people beetween the two and people who don’t even know what that mean. :cwy:
So… I see you are very determined and your mind is cristal clear.
It’s sad how a fiction, a mean of escapism to get relieve from the worries of the day, can become a battle field… it’s sad but also kind of funny to see how dumb some people is… Instead of having fun and enjoy the freedom of the mind flying in a fantasy world where we can reacreate a nicer love enviroment for our beloved Michael and for us with him, at least here, a free space to share with friends linked by Love… instead of doing so they fall into the same old world of competition, possessiveness or even worse nasty feelings. For me is not even conceivable.
Every little community, and this is an example, reflects the standard social enviroment.
I wonder… I feel humanity has still a loooooong way to go…
Personally I didn’t have time lately to read the XI chapter of “Tame the wild cobra” and I look forward to do it in these next days of holidays from the 24th of Dec.
I wish I could read them on paper in bed before slipping into my dream world like I do with books…
See… my editorial past comes up all the time :happy:
I will be around during my holidays but for now I say:
KEEP YOUR HEAD UP and have a nice day (or night) !
L-O-V-E always from your Italian friend who is turning 49 next Wednesday ;)
Hi everyone :wub:
It warms my heart to get such positive responses. Ok, everyone please be patient because the program I installed doesn’t seem to be working in Internet Explorer so I might have to change it. It’s not that I have a requirement that people post, but it’s hard to know who you’re sharing w/ if you never hear from the person!!!!! So thanks Xena for saying hi. I’ve seen you logging in and out and no, you’re never been a troublemaker :wink:
PCakes, you know I love you!!!! Thanks for adding your voice!!!!!
SissyBlue, hi, yes, we haven’t got to talk much but I get you and I’ve always felt that you get me :wub:
Hi Elmira!!!!! :wub: You know we’re soldiers in MJ’s army of love!
MJQuan, girl, thank you for saying you’re here for me — it means a lot and I appreciate it! I am happy to have you with me on this journey!!! :heart:
I will need to work on this a little more, okay, guys!!!
Hey, it’s Jasmine again.
I had no idea that all of this madness is going on. Like I told you before, I find it hard to read fanfictions some times because a lot of writers make Michael out to be something that he isn’t in a way that I someimtes feel is disrespectful to his memory. You are among the few MJ fanfiction writers I can read and feel not only that he is being represented in the most honest way but in a way that touches people emotionally. I too wish that Michael could’ve had so much more in his life; he had the money, the fame, and all, but in the end we feel that he passed so unpeacefully. Through fanfictions – honest ones – I feel that we are allowing Michael to live in ways he wasn’t able to experience and therefore continuing his legacy. What we write may not have actually occurred but perhaps in an alternate universe.
People like you inspire me, not just with your imaginitive talent but how you’re able to portray your characters’ emotions so honestly. I’ve always felt that writing was the best thing I was good for, and hope to expand that talent.
On the subject of if you forgot me or not, I don’t know. I’m not sure if you mean you’re creating a new website or not, but I hope to still have access to your phenomenal stories.
Thank you, Sabina, and I wish you luck and motivation with your work.
Jasmine
,with love.
Hi Jasmine!!! Well, in order to give people access, I need to remember them, that’s what I mean by forgotten :lol:
Some people post often and so that’s easy, but some just pop in from time to time and some not at all. And I wouldn’t want to leave them out, so that’s why the best way now is just to comment.
Thank you for your kind words :smile: I agree and I’m happy to have shared this story w/ you :wub:
Wow Sabine, I didn’t know about all this. Of course I’m not such an active member myself, mostly because I’m still writing myself, so I missed all of this. I cannot imagine people talking like that about the heroine of either Cowboy Mike or Tame the Wild Cobra, about wanting her to be dead. How ugly can it get ? These are love stories, written from your heart. How can anyone not feel that ? How can anyone not be touched by Shaniia’s innocence or Sabah’s uncertainty ? It’s refreshing to read about their little imperfections. It makes them human, just like us. And Michael… wow… he’s in your head, I guess. That’s what I wrote in the introduction to my own story. We all have a Michael in our head, a man to dream about. And he’s different to all of us, but in all of the stories I read, he’s kind and gentle, a true humanitarian, and well… I must say it… sexy too. When my friend first introduced me to your story, I was “yelling” at her : too much sex, too soon. LOL But I persisted and the characters developed before my eyes and they came alive, with their good ànd bad sides.
When you talk about people imposing their views about how you should write, I completely understand what you are saying. It happened to me too but luckily only once or twice. But hey, the writer is the boss ! LOL… There was even one reader who accused me of being disrespectful towards Michael because I wanted to give his life a different turn. I don’t even remember how I reacted but I was completely taken aback by that comment because if anyone deserves my respect it is Michael. He was a genius, nothing less. And he gave me something of which I thought I had lost it : creativity. I always dreamt of writing a book and I guess that’s just what I’m doing. I’m not half as good as you are, but I love it with all my heart. And I am a little proud of myself because I write in English and it’s not even my native language. LOL Can I brag a little ? Haha…
And Sabine, you are thanking your readers… it should be the other way around. We thank you for sharing your incredible talent with us and for all the work you do to keep his legacy alive. I’m sure he’s watching from wherever he is, and he is certainly approving what you are doing.
Sabine, I’m so very sorry to hear this has been happening, that’s awful. I absolutely love the way you are writing these stories, and completely support you, and your very articulate and valid description of why you are doing this (and why as an artist you have every right to do this your way). That’s exactly the way it should be and no-one has any right to insist otherwise, for pity’s sake, of course they don’t!
I’m sorry I haven’t commented much, but please stick me in your suitcase and take me with you! You know, I nurture a lovely little idea… that all fiction creates its own parallel universe. Just in case by some gazillion to one chance that I’m not nuts, please continue and give Michael what we all know he deserved all along. True love is everything!
Paula xx
Sabine, I hate that you had to endure that. I to like others on here don’t ever comment, but I keep returning because you are such a great writer and I enjoy reding your stories because you incorporate some of Michael’s life in your story. And it helps to exscape this horrid evil world. Please continue your God given talent. Peace be with you! Merry Christmas every one!
Hi Isabeau — it’s always a pleasure to read you :heart: Now I don’t believe you’re a day over 25!!!!! But happppppy birthday!!! What a beautiful time to be born, around Christmas :heart:
Reading you is like reading a kindred spirit. I loved how you worded this:
The internet, to me, represents the world on a small scale, but sometimes a more precise look into the hearts and motivations of others. As you’ve asked, why do that? Why take a fictional, cyber world an inffuse it with ugliness.
I can only say I think some people cannot help themselves, and also cannot hear the word “no.” I’m working day night trying to figure this access thing out!!!! It’s much more difficult than I imagine, but thanks for the “keep your head up” — you know I’m listening to Keep the Faith day and night!!!!!!
Hi Ingridje,
Okay, so when I said that thing about wanting the fictional character dead, I was being creative — so that’s not literal :lol:
What I read was just comparison’s between the character this person was writing and my character, with of course that person’s character being found to be “better” and I thought that was silly, mean spirited and negative. Thank you, from a person who is writing about Michael, for understanding my point of view. I like to think of this as a journey we’re taking together, so I’m happy to share it with people who are like minded :heart:
Hi Paula :heart: Hi Rebecca :heart:
Well, if this has one good result, it’s that I’ve gotten to hear from some of the more silent, but beautiful vioces here!!!!! Rebecca, believe it or not, I’m wathcing everyone logging in and out, and so I see you lurking about :smile: And how could I not, your avatar is one of my favorite pics of Michael!!!!
Thanks for chiming in, and letting me “see” you.
Paula, wow, such a beautiful thought:
Wouldn’t that be something!!!!! :w00t: Don’t worry, once I figure this thing out you will have a specially reserved seat named “Paula” in the audience :heart:
Sabine, thank you, that is sooooooo cool! Ha ha! :biggrin: :kissing:
Sabine :) Take your time girl, thank you thank you thank you for allowing us to come here and escape and remember our lovely one, you’re a blessing. Who is that lil cutie up top? Omg sooo adorable
Wow Sabine!!!! I am so sorry this foolishness has happened.
Girl, all over the web they say MJ has THE craziest fans lol!!! And I guess this proves it. For someone to take fiction about him so seriously is just WOW!!! I guess that’s just what he does to some folks.
I personally have enjoyed guessing where stories would go. Sometimes I’ve been right, sometimes wrong-it’s fun. It’s not that serious for me. It’s a great escape that has gotten me through some rough & dull times.
I truly appreciate what you’ve done. I support whatever you feel you have to do to keep “your” peace of mind because that’s the only place happiness resides.
I definitely don’t want people killing your creativity and stealing your joy in this.
Love & Blessings,
MJ4Life
I wouldn’t keep coming back here to read the stories if I didn’t care about the characters. In fact, that was what I expressed in my first comment to you on this site. It made me cry and I wanted to let you know that you struck an emotional chord. I like these stories because Michael deserved a true love and least here I can read about one that he had/has.
I’m sorry that you have had to go through all this and that you are feeling all this negative energy. I hope that it has ended or that it will end soon and you can concentrate on what makes you happy. Michael and writing. ;)
Thank you Sabine for loving escapism as much as Michael did, creating this place, letting us all come in and thus keeping his spirit and his great ideas alive! His words about magic and wonderment are actually one of the most beautiful and inspirational ones to me from him and I could listen to him talk about that forever because it’s so beautiful to see him get all excited about experiencing it himself but also creating it for us! (I love you, Michael!!) He was such a genius at that and only surrounded himself with the best people and the most comfortable circumstances for him to work, he was in tune with a divine inspiration that he just needed to open himself up to and that’s such beautiful process and thing to witness/see the results from
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So I’m glad you made the necessary changes to feel good and safe here again, YOUR site, your home! I’m glad you’re doing what you have to do for yourself to feel good and safe about “publishing” your stories that mean so much to you and have come to mean so much, to me, too. And if even if the people you mention in your post might be mad at you now, I think you have every right to do what you want here to make sure this place, CCC, is still the way you want it to be. And it’s not like they didn’t have a chance to behave differently, you always have a choice. We all make mistakes but there’s always a way to find back to each other if one is willing to do that. There comes a time though when enough is enough and if that point was reached for you now then I think it was the best thing you could do, clean up a bit and give uu the new and improved Cobra Crack Central, the coolest space on the internet, right up there with facebook. :lol:
Hey Sabine!
I’ve been a lurker since last Fall. I’ve seen some intense conversations here within the past year, but I have not been following it as closely since this spring due to school. I had no idea it had escalated so much. I think readers often forget this is in fact YOUR story.
I have enjoyed Cowboy Mike and TTWC so much because it gave me an escape and made me wish Michael had really had something like these women in his life. I’ve never read any other author that created an entire world for their characters. Instead of finding the typical fan fiction, I found an actual love story that is completely believable.
Again I apologize for not backing you up before…. I promise to not be such a lurker anymore. :happy:
Hi Sabrine,
I must honestly say that I didn’t know that all this was going on. I am not here a lot because I am involved with a lot of things, plus work , plus family yada, yada!! But when I do come here, I enjoy it and I feel the magic that you have created in these stories. You have put a lot of hard work and research into giving the best and most accurate picture of Michael. You are a very gifted writer. It is natural and real. You know they say it’s lonely at the top and that is what you are experiencing my dear just as Michael did. When people see you doing good and coming into your own they get jealous. Then they want to take what you did and show you that they can do it better. BIG PROBLEM: they ain’t the originator or the creator of the gift. They can only run with it but for so long and then they will get stuck. Then people will see who the real McCoy is. Your gifts flows naturally from above just as Michael’s did. No doubt I believe he is sharing some of his gift with you as you write. You can probably feel him and see his face as you envision a new scene or adventure.
This is what they lack dear. Let them go on their way. It is not as easy as they think it is. Good will alway truimp over evil. I was deeply moved when you were contemplating if you should continue this journey. It shows that you are not here to exploit Michael. But you did not choose this journey. It chose you, so you can’t give it up at will. A lot of people, including me, look forward to this and you don’t know how much it means to read such uplifting stories. Those who love Michael understand and wished that he could have found happiness as he does in many fan stories, but alas he did not. We may never know completely why, but the truth of the matter is your writing allows us to escape from that the torment of what might have been for Michael. Thanks you for doing this because you encourage me.
Well I have said more here today than I ever had here before but it needed to be said. I don’t waste words or say what I don’t mean.
You keep it up honey. I hope you go far. I wish these stories could hit the shelves. Your writing is far more believable than “some so called writers” who actually knew him and have exploited the relationship for money.
God bless you and break a pen or a key, or how ever it should go!! LOL!!
Much love♥
Aww… Sabine. I’m sorry that happened. But I’m glad you’re doing what you need to in order to continue to write for your OWN characters the way you want to. Because, yes, Sabah is yours. You created her (and I love her btw and the way Michael loves her). And I guess it’s just amazing to me that people would send you threats over your own fictional character. Yes, the stories do evoke emotion and there are debates about what happens in each chapter, but I never realized it had gotten that sinister.
I think for any artist or creator, the main thing is for them to feel as if what they do matters or resonates with the masses. And from the comments here, I’m sure you realize that your work has touched each of us in a way no story (regarding Mike or otherwise has). For me, it’s being able to relive his life in a much more loving and beautiful way that seemed taken from him in his real life. It’s like your rewriting his history… his-story the way people who loved him wished it could have been. And it’s not perfect, which is what makes it so real. But damn if it’s not passionate and moving and touching all wrapped into one.
Sabine,
I was so surprised to read of the problems you have been experiencing. But, I was glad to read that it’s only a few unfortunate people causing you difficulties, that many of your readers are enjoying your wonderful work and are gladly along for the journey.
I read many fan fiction works on multiple sites and I could not imagine telling one of the authors how to write their story or even something I didn’t like.
I have a great respect for the work and effort you and your fellow fan fiction writers do, it’s a gift that you are kindly sharing with us.
As for replacing myself with the ‘female lead’ in the stories as you mentioned … I’ll admit that the girls in your stories and others that I read have (in my head) a striking resemblance to me :lol: but I also have come to love the characters and view them as friends of Michael — any friend of Michael’s is a friend of mine.
I’ve found myself wanting to give Sabah a hug during her difficult times and am glad when Kit is there to help her pick up the pieces.
Thank you Sabine for your work, your art, your willingness to share. And thanks for letting us know – it won’t kill us to say thanks more often instead of just waiting for your next installment.
Hi Sabine,
I haven’t been here for months, because life just hasn’t let me spend my time the way I want to lately. But I got the email about changes and had to come see what the heck was going on up in here, lol. I loved your beautiful stories and have every intention of coming back to catch up when I am able to…I do miss them. I am truly sorry for the negativity and the b.s. that’s come your way. These are your stories, this is your place, and we are honored that you are so kind as to share your gift with us. To me, in all your stories, your love and respect for Michael shines through first and foremost. Keep doing what you do girl, the way you want to do it. Much love to you and I hope to be back here soon. xoxo
Shaz
Hi everyone!!!!
:heart: I want you all to know that I am reading and smiling and my heart is swelling with appreciation. This is like the greatest Christmas gift ever. Of course your comments are also helping me know who to “invite” on this great adventure, so thank you for taking time out of your day. I see some familiar “faces” and also some people who I haven’t heard from before, and that makes me very happy!!!!!
ValerieEvans, I hear you loud and clear!!!! Thank you :wub:
Sept11984 you”re like Sabah :lol: You poor thing!!! Sabah is a trip!!!!! :tongue:
No seriously, thank you for all that you wrote, and yes, I love the comments, can’t say that enough.
Hi Ladake!!! I was waiting to hear from you, I appreciate your words and I know that they are heartfelt and sincere :heart:
Hi Ashley!! I certainly know about school and wanting to escape it, so don’t apologize for not being a regular commentator. I’m just happy that you’ve said hello and let me know you’re still around so I can add you to the list!!!! :wub:
Frodes, I remember your first comment. I will never forget it. It was very touching and moving :heart:
MJ4Life, OMG, :w00t: I couldn’t remember your log in name, so thank God you decided to comment :lol: I know you have a special place in your heart for Sabah and Michael, and that makes me have a special place in my heart for you!!!! :wub:
Gemmeux, you know you’re my girl!!!! II am going to have to take my time, because this is much more difficult than i thought. Now that little munchkin above is my niece, don’t you love the pose? :lol:
Hey Shaz, girl you don’t know how important it is for me to hear that my stories come across as respectful and loving. More than anything, I need to hear that, because that’s very important to me!!! So thanks girl, I appreciate that more than you know!!!
Hi Sabine
:sad: I was not aware of this negativity, and am very sorry about how this has affected you. It must be very difficult for you to continue your art with these bad vibes surrounding you.
:happy: I don’t post a lot, but I have been reading your stories for quite some time now. I have already expressed how I find you to be an amazing writer. You are truly one of the best, which is why I continue to come here to read YOUR stories. It’s YOUR imagination that draws me in. It’s YOUR characters that bring me back for more, because I have truly become entangled into these worlds YOU have created.
The loss of Michael has been devastating to people all over the globe. You have captured his essence so well, that when I read your stories, its as if he never left, and you are giving me a sneak peak into his life. I like that you have created a fictional love interest for him in Sabah – even though she has certainly taken on a life of her own – because she comes from YOUR imagination, so we have no preconceived notions as to who she is, or what she is supposed to be or going to do. Sabah seems so real that sometimes I wonder if you have been part of Michael’s life, or if you have inside knowledge into his private life, and are reporting true events in the guise of a fictional story.
So I come here to read YOUR stories, and am soooo grateful that you have been willing to share them. You have done such a wonderful job, that I just can’t fathom as to why some readers would want to change that by pushing their wants and desires onto you, stifling your creativity. I hope you will allow me the privilege of having access to your beautiful stories again.
Hi Pithundermj :heart: , I should be asleep but I’m not, and I just didn’t want to go to sleep w/o answering your beautiful message. It means a lot to me that you’d take the time out to comment since it’s not something that you often do, and that goes for you and everyone else who prefer to read and lurk :smile: . This is really about making this space safe for me to express my art and I’m happy to read that people understand and respect that.
Now, I can’ assure you that unfortunately, I’ve never known Michael personally (though I wish I had!!!!) :wink: But it feeeeeeels oh, so good to hear you speculate and wonder — Michael would love it!!!!!
I am honored to be able to invite you to read the rest of the chapters!!!!
I just have to figure out how to do it :lol: I think I might have figured it out though, but first sleep calls :sleeping:
Hi Sabine,
Like others who have already commented, i’ve never posted here on your blog but i’ve been reading for quite some time. Actually i think i’ve been reading since you first started. it’s crazy, because it’s like history repeating itself when i read about the drama that’s been going on here.
idk if you can recall, but i remember when i first learned of CCC on another blog that was “dedicated” to the whole Glenda, MJ and “S” transcripts. the blog began very peacefully, just being a gathering place for MJ fans to get together and learn more about the man we’ve all come to adore. but then, like what’s happened here apparently, a clique formed, people became nasty, and drama ensued. in the end, the owner of that site first made the blog private but then after much harassment shut the blog down entirely.
i’m not sure if you remember that, but that blog is where i first saw you mention CCC and i’ve been reading ever since it was over at blogspot.
well anywayyss, i’m in LOVE with all of your stories and have grown quite attached to the characters you have created. you have given us readers that same “escapism” that MJ sought to give us through his art. its such a shame that people have to try to turn it into something ugly.
i pray that these antics do not dissuade you from sharing your art with us again. idk if its even possible to keep the haters out, seeing as it didn’t work before at the other blog, but maybe making it more private will help.
there’s not much else i can say that the others have not already said. i’ll just say that im a HUGE fan and i rave about this site constantly (i follow you on tumblr btw–i’m mjcanyoufeelit =]) lol. i’d truly DIE if i did not get the chance to continue following this incredible journey.
all for L.O.V.E.
LiberianGirl.
Hi Sabine,
I just want to say you are such a wonderful writer with great talent.Please don’t let ppl bring you down to your knees.Please don’t let them get the satisfaction of this stupidity.Please continue with your master pieces .We are behind you.I truly enjoy all your lovely stories.They seem so real ,so true, so beautiful. The kind of LOVE we all wish to have with that one special someone.
Thank you and take care,
“Connie”
Hey Sabine
Sonia. It’s been a long long time I know I use to be a regular commentator on here months. As you know I have moved to the other side of the world. I’m now a teach and working. Guess what I’m doing what Michael always loved I’m around kids all day, toddlers and school kids. Its been a blast lately we’re working on Christmas crafts and its going great I get to keep my daughter at work with me, its a perk to those of us working there. So as a result I hardly ever get to comment and I don’t even read the comments on here anymore.
:blink: So I haven’t got a clue on what was going on here or what has gone down.
But believe me girl. Whenever I get the chance I do check for your next chapter and I do read them. Although I hardly ever comment on them because of lack of time.
:sad: What do you mean you won’t be sharing CCC, TTWC AND BBM anymore????? I mean you aren’t going to stop writing???
I mean how will we be able to read your next chapter.
I know months ago back in US we did have a serious disagreement on some stuff, and believe me I still stand by that and say that you really did misunderstand me but otherwise its been pretty cool. I’d hate to let a few jerks stop you from doing your thing.
:shocked: This little note you just left REALLY GOT MY ATTENTION!!!!
So please do keep me posted and do read my comment and respond.
:shocked: Oh it turns out Oprah after all did do that interview with the kids and all. Somebody had said it was just a rumor or something, but I guess it wasn’t.
What???????!!! What is this foolishness you’re talking Sabine?? Fools competing with a fictional love interest?! Say it ain’t so!! I wondered why the story hadn’t been updated in awhile. That’s just silly and folks need to find their own hobbies and lives if they’re tripping on a character that isn’t even flesh and blood. Crazy!!! I was hoping that most on here were adults and could conduct themselves accordingly, but perhaps not, unfortunately. Well, don’t stop writing or allow them to cloud your creative process. I rarely get into personal discussions unless they’re light hearted and fun. This is why I come here, so I wasn’t aware of all the BS. Sometimes we as MJ fans are fiercely protective over him and I get that, we love him very much, but some of us take it too far to the point of unhealthy obsession. We tend to argue and fight more amongst each other than those on the outside. This is very evident in the fan clubs as well and why I rarely visit some in particular. Some feel as though their opinion is THE opinion and take offense when yours is different. It’s tiring. Sites like yours are an escape from the madness while not escaping Michael. This, however, is sad and pathetic that the mess carries over here. It’s unfortunate that a few tend to spoil it for others. Do what you feel you need to do, but you should leave your stories open for all to enjoy. I wouldve never known how great your writing was if I had not stumbled upon it myself and read it. Others should have that same experience too that have yet to be introduced to your stories. Good luck with whatever you decide and I look forward to the next chapter! HINT HINT:)
Did I say HINT HINT? okay, just making sure :wink:
Hi Sabine,it’s so sad reading that there’re people out there who like to cause problems,just for the sake of it…..and definately you’re not worth such a behaviour. I think you’re not only a very talented writer,but a very genuine person too.I believe that, in every artistic expression,someone exposes a part of his soul,his true feelings….so reading your stories and your responses to the readers comments,i saw how sensible and respectful person you are.You have always a warm answer to a comment,always with respect and sensibility!!!! I never understood why people respond to a genuine behaviour with ugliness….why they don’t just leave,if they don’t agree with something but instead they try to ruin it? I enjoy so much reading your stories,it gives me comfort and happiness and i’d like to continue reading them.Don’t let anyone bring you down and continue to share with us your great talent.Thank you and i appreciate you very much Sabine…….Maria
Dear Sabine, thank you for your nice words for me… I read some of the nice comments and some of your answers.
I tell you that I never read other fan fiction beside yours because the few times I tryed I did not feel the same L-O-V-E that you put here. May be I’m wrong, but that’s how I feel… :)
I was wrong, my birthday is on Thursday 23rd and yes, I love it because is close to Christmas and the atmosphere is holiday-like and happy most of the time.
I never cared much about not having two presents but only one for both occasions (except from my mom and dad)
I remember when I was very little, until 6 y.o., being so excited for the fact that my mom told me that Santa would come in my house with little Jesus to help him bring me presents.
I remember I was feeling so honoured and super happy for that… I imagined them sneeking in our apartment through the key hole of the door by magic (no chimney of course) with a glowing light around them. Every year I tried hard to stay awake and my mom told me that they would not come if they knew I was awake ;) One night I woke up by chance and heard some noises! I did not move and stayed mute in the dark with my heart pumping like crazy and tryind to fall asleeep again so they won’t go away…
Thinking about all this shopping franzy makes me nostalgic for those times when mandarines and nuts came with the presents to rimind us of old poor times after WW2 when there where no presents for kids and the atmosphere was still magic. This year I’ll try to go to a church where they sing gospel at midnight on the 24th since I never did that.
I have a friend from Senegal who is a muslim but told me the other day he likes Christmas very much.
It’s incredible his faith… he does not follow the religion but his faith is so rooted in his heart it’s incredible.
This young man is teaching me so much that I think I will write something about it.
I go to lunch now before my break ends up…
L-O-V-E!!
PS Yes, “Keep your head up” it’s my favourite song of the new album and I think Michael is happy to feel that our hearts feel so much uplifted by it even if he didn’t have the chace to put his final touch on it.
I believe he is now in a new and higher level of conciousness and those little ego-trips are not important at all any more.
This is a beautiful love story….I always wished that Michael would find someone that loved him just for him …thank you again……
Hey Sabine, Sorry all that mess was going on.. Sounds like some people lost track of reality.. I LOVE ur stories, and I know that’s what they r, stories. It let’s me escape into my on little world( away from the hubby), for a little bit. You do such a wonderful job with your writingm it keeps me interested. Some of the stories I’ve read are really silly, It’s like “they would never say that in REAL life!” We all know that Michael was a human being, and had flaws, just like all of us. You show that in your stories. Keep up the great work, don’t let those crazy people get u down, or make u stop. We all need your stories, to escape our hum drum worlds!!
Hi everyone! :heart: Well, I want to thank the new commentators for verbalizing their support, it’s nice to know and hear ’cause I wouldn’t know what everyone was thinking/feeling!!!
Foreverinmyheart, you are so welcome :heart:
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Isabeau, what a lovely story. I know your mother must have felt blessed to give birth on the 23rd!!!! It’s true, people with birthdays near Christmas tend to miss our on their birthday gifts, as people give them one present for both occasions. If you were my daughter or friend, though, I’d either SHOWER you with gifts, or make the present SOOOOO BIG, you’d be knocked off your feet every year!!!! :wub: Seriously, I don’t think my kids have ever gotten ONE gift for Christmas!!! “Cause I love to give!!!! :wub: Especially if it’s the perfect present — just seeing that person’s eyes light up is like the best present to me!
I loved your little story!!!! Santa w/ Little Jesus! OMG, so cute!!! And I could see you as a little girl, waiting anxiously. Michael was so right, we have to hold onto those moments and that feeling of being a trusting little child. Nothing can ever replicate that time in our lives, that’s why people who abuse children have committed the greatest crime — even Jesus said so:
It is a terrible thing to rob a child of their innocence, their childhood, and I personally believe that’s why Michael suffered so much, because he had his childhood stolen from him.
I love how you speak of your Muslim friend loving Christmas!! I think truth can be found in all religions, even though I don’t believe in religion — in being boxed into it. I love that he’s inspiring you to write and that you’ve found him. It’s such a blessing to find spiritual friends!!!
OMG! :w00t: Me, too. I think Michael, his spirit has risen far above Earthly concerns, and he’s left us to squabble amongst ourselves about it. I think the only thing that rises up to his level is the love, love, LOOOOOVE :wub: :wub:
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Hi Connie, and thank you sincerely. I’ve always loved love stories because who doesn’t fantasize about true love. And those of us lucky enough to have it in our lives, I think it’s nice to read about someone else who has it too. Imagine Michael in love is to me, the stuff that dreams are made of. And I have no desire to have it be me that’s he’s in love with :lol:
You know, I’ve said over and over that I am not writing about myself at all. Just like Harry Potter isn’t J.K. Rowlings in her story, Sabah/Saniia isn’t me! :smile: I feel the need to say it again, because I think some people think I’m writing out my fantasies about Michael, and I am not, at all. I’m not Antoinette or Kit or Pierre or Abena either. :biggrin:
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Hi MariaKouraki! Whenever I see your name, I want to say, Say hi to your sister for me! :lol:
Thank you for your kind words :heart:.
You know, the person I banned told me in an email that I was rude and condescending, and you don’t know how hurtful that was to me. I asked myself that same question you did, why didn’t the person just leave if they found me so unpleasant. But at the end of the day, even when I banned them they wouldn’t leave. So I think it’s like a child who has a toy that is taken away from them because they are treating it roughly, the idea is, I want to do what I want, and I don’t want to be told no, and you are mean if you tell me no or take it away from me, and ultimately, if I can’t have it, I don’t want anyone to enjoy it!! I also think people who are not genuine are scared of people who are. They are scared of their mask being taken away from them. :pouty:
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Girl, what can I say? I think you are right!!!!! Several times I had to stop and say to myself, but this is JUST a story!!!!! But then again, we respond to things strongly that touch us deeply, and I supposed some of the stuff I’ve written about really touched people, and maybe, just maybe it called up things in them that they did NOT want to remember or deal with — that’s just my theory. I really don’t get it totally, and I’m kinda glad I don’t ’cause then I’d be crazy too! But thanks for your support!!!!
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Liberiangirl, yes indeed, of course, I remember what you’re talking about!!!!! :wassat:
:lol: That was back when CCC was meant to be just a joke, and I was just fooling around and not seriously writing at all!!!!!!
I mean I still am trying very hard to have fun despite everything:ermm:
But now there is a part of me that is serious about this story and this place, too, as you can imagine.
My intention is not even to keep the “haterz” out — I’m sure many of them are still here. But the thing is personalities like that can never behave themselves or stay quiet. They need to be seen, heard; to try to dominate and manipulate; it’s group dynamics. You’ll find a few of them in every crowd and they will always be the loudest and the most demanding. So it becomes very easy to weed them out. I don’t have to share my story with them, and I will not be, not any more. If I was published, many people would buy the books and I wouldn’t even know who they were. But this place is like a little reading room that I’ve invited people into, and I think only people who love this place and the stories should really be here.
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No truer words have been said. Not only is it tiring, it’s down right depressing and draining. I don’t think any one likes to wrestle with another person’s ideas and opinions, and at the end of the day, that’s all they are. I wish more people would get that, but some people believe that they ARE their ideas, and that’s the problem. If you disagree with them, or have a different view point, they feel like you are attacking them personally.
I’m sure it must have been very exciting to stumble on these stories!!! I have had that happen to me, on line, at a book store, and I’ve always felt like I’ve found treasure — like I hit the jackpot!!!! It felt like I was being given a special key to a special world, and I would love, LOVE to allow new comers to experience that with CCC but unfortunately, right now, I cannot — not if I’m going to finish the stories. I need this place to remain loving and peaceful and positive. :wub:
Hey again Sabine,
i totally get what you’re saying about weeding out the few bad seeds to keep this place peaceful and positive. i agree that you should. even though most of us are unaware of what’s been going on, it is clear that these people are having some affect on your writing, or at least they’re trying to. just hopefully some of us, esp. the “lurkers” lol, don’t get caught in between the crossfire, you know.
wishing you only the best,
LiberianGirl
Hi Again, Liberian girl. That’s the purpose of this post, because it would be a shame for that to happen. I do want to share the story, I really do, so this post and the comments here are going to help me figure out who get’s tickets to the show, if you know what I mean. :wink:
Many people lurk and don’t comment, so I wanted to give them an opportunity to be heard and “seen”.
I’ve been M.I.A. for a while. Like i haven’t even been reading because of school and all the jazz (blah blah vlah) :( But i gotta say something now for you. lol cuz i love ya. :wub:
Although i didn’t witness the madness I’m really sorry it happened. it upsets me to know that some people would bring such a damper on a place that like CCC- a place filled with genuineo love and appreciation for Michael.
But some people just don’t know how to chiiiiiiiiiillllll.
Unfortunately, there will always people who will take things too far and ruin it for everyone else which is why i say do what you need to do, Sabine.
a wise man once said “haters gonna hate”… lol no I’m kidding. but really. you do whatever you need to do to make sure that you’re comfortable and happy with sharing your story with us. I’ll be here :) (If you’ll have me of course) I love this place (though i haven’t been on in a while :( Sorry!!) and i thoroughly enjoy your stories and the adventures of Mike and Sabah and Prince Mike and Sabine. Thank you. :)
Wow. It is a shame that something that started out with such positive energy ad was also A lot of fun has turned into such a hassle for you. The fun we used to have I guess turned ugly. You know I was just kidding about Melissa and Michael LOL :whistle: It It reminds me of what is going on with MJ fans in general. Everyone seems to know what HE would have wanted. His fans his Family, the estate , his producers , peers people he worked with all have different opinions which is great except when you believe your opinion is the Only one. Did Teddy Riley really say Michael was alive!! Has the whole world gone Insane!! Anyway your stories have provided me with a safe heaven of truly well written prose from a diverse thoughtful writer. My favorite has always Been Tame the wild Cobra. You could take that story and interchange any names and the story would still be riveting. Good luck with your writing I hope you chose to keep sharing it with us. With L.O.V.E :wub: :wub: :wub:
Wow Sabine,
I haven’t been here in awhile seems there is lots happening on the site – I started reading and then got pulled away – went to Genius without Borders Symposium on Michael, took a trip to Indiana and then went back to school plus work so it’s been a crazy few months. I can’t even remember which story I read,I think it was Cowboy Mike and oh yeah I remember making a silly comment that the chick was acting like a spoilt brat – if I offended you I’m sorry. It’s a story and I would have only been commenting on the story – you’ve created a wonderful fantasy world, but for me that’s all it is – fantasy.
Love the new pics of Michael and I love to see Michael wink with both eyes – I can’t wink either LOL – he’s so cute. Merry Christmas to you and all you love ones ♥♥♥♥
I’m glad to be reading all these lovely comments. They show nothing but love… it’s all about LOVE. L.O.V.E.!!! :heart: :angel:
You’re very welcome, and I’d agree I’m not someone who comments often.
I haven’t been on here in a while (waiting for the newest updates) but I think I’m going to reread everything while I wait, reexperience the love.
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you’re right. you know right from the beginning of this great journey i felt like, there is someone who is diffenert and whos stories are much deeper and mellower. i dont know how to explain it but it felt right to read them. you know, like i told you- the words you use touch my heart and soul in many ways. we went though a lot with michael and sabah. how can someone not love these two characters? you made them so alive that sometimes i even miss people like them in true life.
i really dont know what happened here recently, unfortunately i was not among those you mailed and asked for support but after reading all the comments here i think i know what happened.
people started to torment you mercilessly because of creating this dream which feels so good and right and real, because of-correct me if i’m wrong and god i hope i’m wrong- being jealous? i can’t believe this.
this is so wrong. so so wrong. i’m sorry you went through this. i can just imagine withouth knowing how it really was, ho painfu this can be. poor sabine. doing so ,much for us, making all this possible, making people (or at least me) happy and creating a world where michael is still living, loving and enjoying his life should be held in great esteem.
how can some people destroy it? why?
to the troublemaker: please people if you don’t like this just leave but don’t attack others. especially poeple who are constantly making great efforts to make others happy, like Sabine does, who takes great pains to make us feel comfortable, who is here all the time to bring joy, who created a place where we all can dream and tell our dreams while knowing there is always someone who maybe feels the same way or at least understand…. please people, don’t attack her, for she has a great heart, don’ t hurt it, because there is a lot of michael and love in it.
Sissy, that’s a very beautiful post and I feel special that you’d take the time to write it (I know how you feel about commenting.) :heart: I love how you say you felt I was different and that it felt right to read the stories. Isn’t that a delicious feeling, when you encounter a person who is different, but feels right to you? :wub:
Well, I think that was probably one of the many reasons. And you know, I hate to admit it, I’m a little ashamed to, but I suffer from the problem that I think Michael had, which is I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and open up to the wrong people when I shouldn’t!
God save us from the Martin Bashir’s of the world :cwy:
I’m learning how to make better choices about who to confide in, and reading these comments is helping restore/renew my faith that there are many beautiful, warm hearted, good people in the world. :wub:
Elmira, youre right, this post is full of love, and I think that’s perfect for this christmas season!!!!
Hey Mel :smile:
:lol: Girl, I hope you don’t think it’s that serious, that you can’t joke around about the stories!!!!
That goes for you too, KJ!! If you did say Sabah was acting like a spoiled brat (and she really does sometimes too) I don’t even remember!!!! :tongue: I wasn’t at all offended. :lol:
:lol: I swear it feels that way!!!!! It’s true everyone thinks they know best, which is one thing, and quite another when you try to impose your views on others and force them to think like you!!!
Riveting. really? :w00t: That’s the best thing I’ve heard all day!!!!
Alisha, you put it so perfectly. Some people do need to chiiiiiiiilllllll :lol: Thanks for giving me you support to do what I need to do, and most definitely, I’d love to have your coming by to read when every you have the chance :kissing:
Jasmine, can you see the stories, because for most people they are all still restricted and i haven’t found a better program yet. Let me know, if you can, thanks!!!!
Sabine- I just want to let you know that over the last year, I have truly enjoyed your art.
After we lost Michael, I was upset that not only was he gone, but as far as I knew he died alone. I wanted so badly for him to be happy, to have been loved by some wonderful person. I grieved his lonliness!
Your stories helped me feel better!
Thank you so much for sharing your love and imagination
Love
Katrina
Hi Katrina,
You know that is a thought that plague me as well, that if Michael had a “Sabah” — how different things might have been for him. Let’s face it, Sabah would have thrown Conrad out on his ear!!!!
thank you for letting me know how you feel :wub:
Sabine, I know I haven’t commented in ages but I just want to let you know I’m still a dedicated reader. I feel like you really portray Michael in such a beautiful light, as true and as real as possible. Your stories make me laugh, have made me cry, but in the end I always feel satisfied and finish the story with a smile on my face, dying for the next installment! I’m sorry you have experienced such drama in the comments section and I hope everything works out. Thank you for everything! Happy holidays, take care ♥
How will you determine who can read the story? I don’t comment that often and I haven’t visited in awhile.