20
Dec
2010
The New & Improved CCC – a note frm Sabine
“Welcome to the new and improved CCC. While on the surface it seems that not much has changed, there has been some very important modifications.
“A big part of being an actress specifically is feeling entitled to your artistic opinion, feeling that it means something, and being able to stand by it.” ~ Maggie Gyllenhaal
“I would like to start off by saying, I am an artist. That’s part of who I am, not all of who I am but a part. Writing is just one of my artistic expressions. It is not a hobby or just something I do to past the time. It’s is something I HAVE to do. It is very BIG, personal, expression of a part of me.
“Poetry is the work of poets, not of peoples or communities; artistic creation can never be anything but the production of an individual mind.” ~ Lascelles Abercrombie
“My sole and only desire in writing both Tame the Wild Cobra and first Cowboy Mike and then Bad Boy Mike was to explore and illustrate, not only the issues that Michael struggled with in his life time, but the ways in which he might have what I wished he had: True love, not by avoiding or ignoring the circumstances and problems presented to him in his life, but by, through small decisions and different choices, facing them head on. I desired to help people understand Michael, as I saw him.
“I invited readers who loved Michael and also wanted that for him to join me on this journey and escape with me into this world that I had created. If I can be credited for anything, it’s making the story so exciting and so much fun. CCC became a great place to hang out and chat and talk about the stories. But I started to notice that certain members of CCC were trying, in small and different ways, to impose their views and ideas about who they thought Michael was, how this world should look, how the love interest of Michael should act and basically how MY story should be written — how CCC should be.
“The music is a personal expression, like art. It is something that you like doing that comes from within, and is an expression that comes from God. That is why artists are beautiful and why people who copy are not really artistic.”
After months of watching this behavior escalate, after seeing a clique being formed on CCC and after having my restated purpose and intention ignored, I opted to end those memberships and then – then things got ugly. One person refused to go. I spent hours watching them attempt to log in over and over. When they succeeded, they put up a taunting email to let me know that they’d made it into CCC despite my blocking them. They sent emails to myself and other members claiming that people were stalking them on CCC and then the people became one “man”. The story became more and more unbelievable and outrageous. I reached out to other active members for support, not for them to actually do anything, but just to be a witness to the craziness that was going on. Even though some had emailed me to talk about their personal problems, to ask for advice, even though they’d come to CCC for prayers and support when they were feeling down, I was actually even given the coined apathetic response in not so many words, “I don’t want to get involved. I just want to read the stories.” But of course, as you can imagine, I can’t write in such an environment.
“My concern is to continue respecting my work as I’ve done since I began as an actor and I could only do that if I’m strong enough to keep on doing what I think best in an artistic way.” ~ Javier Bardem
So I’ve decided I will no longer share Bad Boy Mike, Cowboy Mike and Tame the Wild Cobra with the general public. I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression, who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is and who let me know that; people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally. People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story; who won’t want to slit her throat and throw her under the bus just because Michael loves her. People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex. People who are really interested in reading a love story. People who are open enough to root for Michael to make it with someone he loves. Not someone perfect. Not some boring, inconceivable door mat whom Michael could do with as he wished but a strong, beautiful, interesting woman whom HE could love, and who, though not perfect, loved him back, faults and all. In Romeo and Juliet we are rooting for the couple to make it!!!! I’ve never heard of a person who wanted Romeo to realize that Juliet is too young and immature and decided, AFTER reading the story, to write a story starring Romeo and themselves. When a director remakes a movie he does so because he LOVVVVVED the first movie. It is an act of homage and respect. When a true writer writes a story, s/he does so because s/he is inspired to write the story, not because s/he wants to compete with another writer or another story.
I want to make it clear here, I’m not saying that every writer who is writing Michael Jackson fan fiction is competing with the other. There are some very talented writers who are expressing their gift, some who are going through the stages of grief, some who are just having fun. I am speaking SPECIFICALLY about the few members who I’ve encountered who were doing what I’ve described above, and I choose not to associate with that negative energy.
I achieved my goal in Cowboy Mike which is why the story became so popular and I have continued in that spirit with Bad Boy Mike. In a more loose and fantasy environment, this is what Tame the Wild Cobra story creates as well except, it’s just more fun. And so I’d like to take this moment to express my eternal thanks to the treasured souls who have made this year plus experience both rewarding and enjoyable, without their comments and feedback to give me continued inspiration, I would have most certainly closed down CobraCrackCentral for good. And wouldn’t that have been a shame, because . . . . the stories aren’t nearly finished. I’d like to finish them, and so I am creating the environment I need to make that possible.
If you have any thoughts, comments, please feel free to express them. I believe in honest, open communication as long as it’s respectful. I’m still working on the site and giving access to as many positive people as I can, but it’s going to take some time because I have over 1,000 members!!!! The easiest way to do it is to look through the comments. If you feel I’ve missed you leave a comment here.
Merry Christmas ~ Sabine
“And doing so you can recreate yourself, and you can also come up with something that is not only original and creative and artistic, but also maybe even decent, or moral if I can use words like that, or something that’s like basically good.”~Lester Bangs
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"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
(Spike to Buffy, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.)
"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
"----->His intelligence is instinctual and emotional, like a child’s. If any artist loses that childlikeness, you lose a lot of creative juice. So Michael creates around himself a world that protects his creativity”. ~ Jane Fonda
hi sabine, i didn’t know it was THAT bad!!! i can understand how you feel. you know, i don’t comment much. there are so many things i want to say, i don’t know where to start… but i love your stories. i love the idea that michael had a “sabah” in his life. i know i’m repeating myself but i always felt that through your story i read his biografy. you brought him back to life! and i thank you for that. i appreciate your talent and i thank you for sharing it with us. i hope that you will continue sharing your talent with us! merry christmas!!! :heart: :heart: :heart:
I haven’t been on here in a long time and now everything is private and I had to sign in…and I still cant read anything. I’m confused? And frustrated…
So I havent been to this site in months, I forgot my UN and PW and I decided to make another account from my google email…..anyway this site popped up in my head awhile ago while I was googling something Mike related. And I decided to pay it a visit and maybe reread the first few chapters of Cowboy Mike! But I cant find it :cwy: :ermm: I kind of skimmed through what you wrote up their and im a little confused…..but I just want to be on that list of people who can access the story. :cwy: I havent even got to chance to read Bad Boy Mike either. :dizzy: Im so far behind! lol….Oh and I know that you love comments. I definately tried to leave a few comments for CM…after I read the chapter. But I cant say that I left a comment after every chapter though. :ninja: Anyway, you are a wonderful writer and your stories are awesome girl! :wub: :blush: and I will make sure to leave comments to show my appreciation for your writting. :heart:
Hey Sabine I love your work and I love you your work is nothing far from genius I told you this many times I never seen mj fan fiction written the way you write I get lost in your stories and forget about all the everyday life problems I’m always logged on I never ever log of I’m constantly checking for updates I posted two days ago but it dosnt show and what I posted was pretty long I hope this one post again I love you and your work and I’m always going to be a fan of ccc I hope you jeep me a a member I just come to get away from reality cry laugh and show my forever love for mj so keep doing what you do and as long as long as you do I’m behind you all the way Hun and I’m so very sorry for all the very immature people you hade to encounter love ya
Sabine, I don’t like to be closed in a religious ‘box’ … infact I read the teachings of as many as possible Great Masters and wise man of all traditions.
Yes, my african friend from Senegal is telling me a lot even if he is not too acculturated. He told me about Sufism (I didn’t know they were in Senegal too) and other things I didn’t know about.
And this friendship arrives while I’m reading a nice book on Africa called HEBAN by Ryszard Kapuscinki (a reporter from Poland who became very famous who define himself as a literary reporter and that is really what he is… http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ryszard_Kapu%C5%9Bci%C5%84ski
He describes what happened in Africa after the end of colonialism in the 50’s and 60’s until today.
We are all so ignorant in these Eurocentric world… (US was created by Europeans, obviously).
The more you know the more you realize how deep is your ignorance, the wise say…
Hey everyone! Okay, I think I need to be a little more clear. I am still trying to figure out how to offer the stories that I said would not be shared with the general public anymore, BBM, TTWC and CBM — I just haven’t figured out how to do it yet!!! I’m still working on it, so please be patient.
Hi Caliypso! Long time no see!
Okay, I want to say explain a bit more here, this is not a popularity contest or my fishing for compliments. At the risk of repeating myself, because I was pretty specific in the post above, I truly want to share my stories with those who can appreciate my art, and the way I am choosing to write it. This is not a situation of Oh, I want everyone to leave comments telling me how great I am, so they get permission to go into my secret club. I understand a lot of people love the stories for different reasons and want to read them, but since I’m not psychic, there’s only one way for readers to let me know their thoughts so I can see where their head is at.
That being said, people should only leave comments if they want to, if they have a desire to share or say something to me about CCC or what I’ve written. I’m not requiring anyone to post a comment so that they can get to read the stories, and if that is the ONLY motivation for leaving the comment . . . . well, you really can’t fake sincerity. I mean, obviously, it might be one of the reasons, but it shouldn’t be the only one. :heart:
I do truly appreciate each and every person who has expressed their support for my decision, that they love my writing and have been touched by the stories, and believe it or not
(I swear I’m not psychic) :tongue:
but I can tell the messages that are coming from the heart. :heart:
that’s my criteria, sincerity :wink:
Aintnosunshine, I was wondering what happened to you! :) Thanks for stopping by and yes, I do see you logging on and off, so I know you are no where near cured of your addiction, that goes for you too, MichelleSerrano :lol: Merry Christmas to the both of you, and thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts.
Isabeau! Hi again! So yet another thing we have in common. I read a book about Sufism once, and i thought it wsa fascinating. The writer you mentioned, Ryszard Kapuscinki — am I the only one who finds intelligence partnered with boldness attractive?
:w00t: I mean THAT to me is sexy! lol!!!!! I mean, yes, he was born in 1932, but by the picture he’s still an attractive man. I wonder what he looked like when he was younger? :kissing:
I hate to agree with you, but it is true. Sometimes I think though, it is a willful ignorance. As you may have already figured out, the truth about what has happened in countries like Africa, and what is STILL going on until to day is U G L Y and many people avoid it like a plague.
It’s my dream to visit Africa one day! I’ve heard, unlike how they portray it in the U.S., it’s a very beautiful place. Even Michael said so. :wub:
Hey Sabz..
Girl…I didn’t know the crazyness was THAT bad! What in the hello is wrong with some people? I mean seriously, you don’t have to write these great stories, allow them to read them, and in some cases plagiarize from your work-in other words, you don’t and didn’t have to do a damn thing for them or anyone else! :angry:
I appreciate and love your stories, as they give me an outlet, some escapeism (c)MJ. It’s MAGIC! (c) MJ. Put me on your list, i’m at your service! :wink: I missed you too Sabz, and I’m looking forward to speaking with you. Just in case we miss each other before Christmas, you and you family Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! :biggrin:
Hey Girl, welll sssssh, don’t say nothin’ but you were already on my list!!!! :wub: I know you’re a hard working nursing student who needs an outlet for all her frustrations!!!!!!
Now I think this was a typo (or was it?) , but OMG, this made me laugh:
Hello is right! :lol: :cheerful:
and OMG, this is harsh, but girl it’s too true!!!
I mean, shamone now, I really don’t!!!! Now you know I love to share the stories, just as long as it’s not stress for me! :wub:
And plagiarizing me :ermm:
girl, how did you know???? :lol: :cheerful:
Merry Christmas to you to, hun!!!
I’m sorry to hear that there are people on here doing those sorts of things. I love your ‘stories’. They make me feel happy for Michael. I got right into the characters like I was a bug on the wall watching them. The sex parts only add to them – but they are good…lol. Just wish Michael had found his one true love like you have written. I do hope you continue on. There are a lot of us who would miss Michael, Sabah…etc…
I do hope you have a very Merry Christmas and everything works out…
Hugz
hello sabine, thank you i enjoyed reading your answer. well, a lot of things between your words sound so familiar to me (like most of the time). especially about trusting the wrong people. i went a lot through that realization, that oftentimes i also trust the wrong people and everytime i tell myself ‘ ok, never again! ‘, but i always make the same mistakes, over and over again (luckily not with men though, blessedly i’m permanently suspicious of them- that’s at least someting lol).
unfortunately a more than a few so called ‘friends’ have betrayed me a good few times. and as i said: each time i tell myself ‘never ever’ but you know what? that’s a part of me i suppose: i still believe in people and their good nature. and i won’t give up keeping the faith. the price is to fail and get hurt many times but then again you find a great souls and true friends too on your jouney called life!
sabine do you remember a while ago when i told you ‘to go private’ because your stories are too precious to be publicly accessible? maybe i had a premonition of what was to come.
i feared that day when there will be envy, selfishness and grudge among those who are to weak for this kind of fictional world. too young or maybe they are not really into michael but more into the idea of what they want to believe michael was like. there is a big difference. you are a writer, you write your stories, they are ficional stories, you know it and we know it. but they feel so real that -as i once said, we wish michael had a sab in his life too. but we won’t really know, if he wanted a sab in his life, or if a sab would make him happy! but we love the idea and we love the imagination of michael being in love, having fun, making love, laughing, crying, being angry, being aroused and so on. many times you created lots of scenarios for us, which we could feel, sense and even see through your eyes. these are your scenarios, which you’d brought us. now of course we don’t see it exactly like you do, of course we modify some scenarios a little bit in our imagination from time to time, that’s a part of it, we are all indivual beings. we all love dreaming and imaginations. and most important : we love michael… so why on earth would people try to destroy such a place? i fear there won’t be an answer.
but you know what? i surely miss the good old days, when there weren’t that much poeple here. like in the last month. i udes to come back home, totally tired and done in anticipation of joy. switching on the laptop, while it boots up, eating something and checking out for new chapters, and if so, wow that was sooo great, preparing for the next couple of hours of appreciatively reading, like making hot chocolate or a great ice cream and oh how many other rituals i had. :lol:
oh how great it was. and yes, that was when i thought and i still think: yes sabine , it’s delicious to encounter a person who is different but makes me so happy and have familiar imaginations but can write it down and create a world which feels right.
I really miss those days. :sleeping:
ps: oh and since i have an iphone (since may) you can’t imagine how often i check on this site even from work when there is time….dayum. i feel like a stalker. and girl what in the hello ( i really love that one!) is wrong with me, why do i comment the last days so often?
maybe because i dont want this place to be destroyed because of ignorant people. girl this really means something when i comment that much!!!!!!!!!!! chamone :tongue:
Hello Sabine,
Sorry you’ve had to deal with all this drama! I haven’t been on for a couple of months so I guess I missed all that craziness. I would love to be allowed to continue reading your wonderful stories. I don’t really comment like the other members do, but I really do love reading your work.
Thank you
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
Phew well that’s a relief – thanks Sabjne – I’ve never been a part of any MJ controversy and I certainly wouldn’t want to start here in this place of LOOOOVE!!! It’s was sounding super serious so I thought I had broken a cobra crack behaviour code LOL – Merry Christmas all ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
OMG, I think I figured it out!!!!! I’d like to officially thank Michael and his fabulous playlist for helping me while I wrote code for this website!!! Lord knows how I’m going to get back into my artistic mind, since I’ve been thinking analytically for the past week!!!! :w00t:
But you know, while I was reading up on how to make the changes I needed to, one website had on the bottom of it, Code is Poetry, and I thought that was so pretty. It is another language, and well, I love to challenge myself so now I know a little more about how to create a website and make it do what you want!!!!! :smile:
So KJ, girl, yeah it’s serious to me but it aint THAT serious!!!! I woulnt say super serious, so that you can’t tell me that Sabah is a brat. I know she’s a brat!!! I wrote her :lol:
Hi Luvmjforever!!! Thanks for your compassion and have a Merry Christmas yourself. Of course you can read the stories — “allowed” makes me sound like a prison warden or something :lol:
Thanks for understanding :wub: That goes for you, too, Chrisy — I “see” you down there!!!!
Thanks for coming out of the woodworks and voicing your feelings — I appreciate hearing from you, and no, I’m not going to stop writing, not now anyway. I just need this to be a positive place, as much as it can be :wub:
Sissyblue, you know, I think the comfort of a small group makes people kind of afraid of including others, because you have people you trust and you don’t want to let other’s intrude on that solitude. It feels warm and comfortable and you don’t want to “give that up”.
Like you, I don’t want to ever become jaded, but yes, I’ve have “friends” betray my trust and try and use me, and that has never ever felt good. But what can you do but continue to give people a chance anyway, because no man is an island and we must interact w/ each other, otherwise life becomes dull and meaningless.
I truly believe we are here to help one another and to grow, and if we are not doing that, then I think we are not doing what we’re supposed to do on this Earth.
I DO remember!!!! Yes, maybe you had a premonition! I remember a few days ago I was going on and on about seeing the number 5 everywhere, and that is a number indicating change. And you know I thought yesterday, wow, maybe this is what that number was pointing towards, because change is not always pleasant. :wassat:
I find what you’ve said above is sometimes very true. I’ve spoken to MJ fans who like the “idea” of Michael more than they truly liked him, and I really don’t think they know the difference. I’m not trying to sound like a know it all, it’s just an observation I’ve made. It seems they have confused fascination with love and you know, the two are not the same. In life, people often try to build relationships with others that they are merely fascinated by, and those relationships fail because they are not dealing with a real person, but someone they’ve made up in their head. It’s refreshing to speak to someone who get’s that, because I think a lot of people don’t understand this happens, not just with celebrities, but with anyone we admire or are attracted to for whatever reason. At first we tend to kind of make them up. And then when we get to know them and see their faults we’re disappointed. Why? Because they no longer match our “perfect” idea of who they were. That’s why it’s no fun to be put on a pedestal, you will fail the person admiring you eventually every time!
I love the imagery! I can see you, I really can :smile: Well, it can be that way for you again, I think, and I’m hoping the changes I’ve made will help that happen.
OMG, I’m going to be using that phrase all week, What in the HELLO! I love it!!!! Thanks Ms. Thang :tongue:
Well, I mean, stalking crack, that makes sense right? You have to have your drug! I get it. I don’t know the specific reason that you’ve been inspired to comment so much but I LIKE it!!! :w00t:
So don’t stop ’til you get enough :lol:
Sabine sweetie I am so sorry that you have had such problems with the site. It breaks my heart when I hear things like this. I’m sorry I haven’t been here in quite some time. I used to come to the site quite often but I got a job and got caught up in so many other activities that I stopped coming by. There is another reason as well, it is hard to explain but I will try. I am one of those readers that hates for a good story to end so I try and delay reading the end for as long as I possibly can. I had gotten up to the last Chapter of Cowboy Mike and in all honesty I have been reluctant to read it because when I do that portion of the story will be over. I was trying to wait until you had a few chapters of Bad Boy Mike written so I would have more to look forward too and I know you have some of it up but I got busy and just haven’t had time to get here and read. So tonight I thought I would stop by to catch the last chapter and I found this note and was heartbroken to hear of your troubles. I have looked around and the only Chapter of Cowboy Mike I can find is the April Fool’s Chapter :)) Which I might add I fell for completely and my friends got a great laugh out of my panic!!!! LOL And I find nothing for Bad Boy Mike at all. :(( I love your stories they drag me into another world that i would have loved to be able to have seen Michael live. You bring him and Sabah to such life it is amazing! But I am a writer as well and I know that when you write you bare a portion of your soul to the reader and it is hard to put that out there, especially when you get those who just do not understand. So if you decide not to give me access to the story anymore I totally understand even though I will miss it horribly. Know that I love you and will stand by your decision whatever you decide.
Here is Wishing You and Your Family A Very Merry Christmas and A Blessed New Year!!!
Much Love,
HoneyGirl
Well I wasn’t around for the controversy and I use to leave detailed comments. Usually by the time I read, others have expressed what I was thinking anyway. With that being said, I hope to have access. Please let me know so I’ll know where I stand. Thanks.
You’re right about some of Michael’s fans. it’s virtually impossible to escape negativity and fighting and it can be so frustrating. Sometimes I take breaks from the forums because of the negative energy. Sadly it’s getting worse. :cwy: I’m glad I missed the drama here. I just want to say that I always enjoyed your analysis of the chapters.
One last thought and then I’ll stop talking so much. I’m sorry you had to experience this. I remember when you were upset about people stealing your stories. It’s a pity that a few unruly fans have forced you to make this decision. The stories are so wonderful that I want every fan to enjoy them. I know that’s not possible now but it’s kinda like a museum preventing the public from seeing the beautiful and priceless works of art within. I’m really disappointed in some fans.
Hi everyone, OMG, I never went to sleep :alien: I promised myself I wouldn’t do that anymore, but I’ve been listening to Michael all night, and God, it’s so amazing how every song is just as good as the last. :wub:
HoneyGirl, I remember you commenting a couple of times before, thanks for the kind words. I actually went through a lot of my comments and gave access to some names that even though I hadn’t seen commenting in a while, I felt were serious addicts who could not live without their drug — :lol: That’s a joke!!!!!!
I seriously am only looking to make this place positive and drama free, for me, it’s important. Drama and negative energy literally makes me ill.
Honeygirl: There is another reason as well, it is hard to explain but I will try. I am one of those readers that hates for a good story to end so I try and delay reading the end for as long as I possibly can. I had gotten up to the last Chapter of Cowboy Mike and in all honesty I have been reluctant to read it because when I do that portion of the story will be over
You know you’re no the only person w/ that problem. :cheerful: There’s another reader, I won’t say who
:tongue:
But she used to read half the chapter, and then wait for me to put up another chapter and then read the end. So don’t feel like you’re the only one!!!! :lol:
This is sooooooooooo true. Thanks for writing it out so clearly and for understanding and Merry Christmas to you too!!! :heart:
Hey Calypso :smile: :heart: I understand your sentiments, I truly do:
I thank you for the compliment. Just think of it like this. If you had a group of unruly teenagers who wanted to come into the museum to just basically to hang out. Sure they liked the art, and they thought the place was beautiful, but they also thought the no smoking/no eating/no touching sign didn’t apply to them and that they basically could do, say whatever they want, wouldn’t the museum personnel escort them out and tell them not to come back?
While there’s no requirement that anyone actually “like” me, I think at the very least, I have every right to expect to be respected in this place. I don’t want to small talk and chit chat w/ people who are secretly hostile towards me, and definitely don’t want to share my story with them. I mean, the people who I was speaking of in the post really could care less how I feel, no matter how congenial they might have been. To speak plainly, they basically just wanted to use me, read and enjoy my story, ya know, and not give anything in return.
You sound so serious :tongue: I remember your comments — I actually read a few tonight looking through the comments on a prior post. I hope you understand that this is not personal, and of course you should know that even if 20 people say the same thing, I appreciate each person taking the time out to say it, and it means something different that it is coming from a different person. As for the negativity in the MJ forums, well, I think it’s just group dynamics — I mean MJ fans are people, and when people get together, no matter the group, you’re going to find a few who want to dominate/manipulate the others. It’s a sad, sad truth, and ignoring it just makes it worst, IMO.
Welll, the good news is I think I was able to successfully separate the stories from the main blog. The chapters won’t be able to searcheable for anyone who is logged out, and of course can only be read by those with access who are logged in. I’m still adding people so once again, please be patient, ’cause I have to do it manually, one by one. :wub:
hi sabine. well it is really mean for someone to stress you out when all ur doing is sharing something nice that you work really hard on with everyone even though you don’t have to, especially around xmas and i’m sorrry that you had to deal with that. some people can be so cruel ‘n selfish. i think you know i support your decision 1,000 percent ‘n you know what? even if you only invited two people to read your stories that would be absolutely ur right ‘n no one has the right to say otherwise.
i’m not sure how u’ll figure out who to trust because you know what i think is funny? am I reading that the person you banned didn’t want to leave? wow, like Diane Dimond who supposedly hates michael but won’t stop talkin about him. you know people can be so hypocritical. they will pretend to be friendly just to get to read the story but secretly have jealousy and envy inside. but it’s just dumb. how incredibly stupid a person has to be acting up on someone’s site ‘n then refuse to leave. wow :w00t: i bet that person is regretting their action big time now that they won’t get to read your incredible stories any more. :tongue: i shouldn’t laugh :devil: :biggrin: :silly: :tongue: but that was kinda dumb :blink: I was thinkin’ about this ‘n you know what i think? i think everyone should comment. its takes a few seconds ‘n is only fair. i am calling myself on my own hypocrisy because i don’t always comment ‘n i really should. you write i bet for hours!
i like everything u said about the type of people you want to share your story with. this place is like having an album listneing party. michael wouldn’t invite diana dimond to the party, would he? :silly: i will try to do better about commenting okay sabine because you deserve to hear how great your stories are but just remember i’m in school and my brain is fried :kissing: :heart: merry christmas to you and your family. :kissing:
Hi Sabine,
I’ve visited this website a few times and absolutely love the writing you’ve been doing.
I’ve always been very shy about commentiing but after reading what you went through, I think now is
as good a time as any. Firstly, that is just not on what went down with some of those members,
this should be a place where someone can share their creativity and not have people interfere with it’s intregrity. Personally, I can totally understand your actions and fair enough! you have my full support on that. It is important to always stay true to your work. I just want to take the time to tell you how much of a fantastic writer you are and I’m not just saying that. You’ve really captured a very human Michael and the style is just so readable. you’ve created fully rounded believable characters which is a major feat in and of itself and you’ve pulled it off in just the most subtle way. I don’t want to rattle on too much but I just felt I had to express that you’ve got yourself a fan here and my full support in you keeping the intregrity in your work.
Fantastic writing and I do hope you keep it up as it would be a shame to give on on something that is truly special :blush: :happy:
Thank you so much for all your great writing!!!!!
dear Sabine,
I have been a lurker for almost a year before we needed to join in order to read your work. I am sorry that I did not comment at all :blush: English is not my first language and I really have some trouble converting what’s inside my head to sentences :sad: I have read several fanfictions about Michael but really none could potray Michael as good as you. Really !! I feel like Michael is so much alive in your work. I got to know him better like personally through your work. What’s good that I am like travelling back to the Thriller era while reading Cowboy Mike which is my favourite :wub:
Sabine, you are trully a great writer. Thanks for bringing Michael back to life again in your work :wub:
Thanks for sharing greatest gift with us :) Lastly, I wish you a very Merry Christmas :happy:
Thanks for answering Sabine and I’m glad you understand my need to delay my reading. LOL And I’m glad I’m not the only one that feels that way. I get so caught up in a story that I feel like I am a part of it and I don’t want to leave it. :smile: :heart:
I will be patient in awaiting access to the stories. I’ve waited this long to finish reading it will just make it that much better when I get to read it. :heart: :biggrin:
Hope you have a great day and get some sleep girl!!! :tongue: :angel:
Love and Hugs,
HoneyGirl
So this is how rehab feels… LOLOLOLOL, guess I’m not added yet… but I will be patient. No stress, Sabine. I know this is important to you. 1906 registered readers !!! You have a long way to go… :w00t:
Just want to wish you and your loved ones a very Merry Christmas !! :wub: :wub: :wub:
Hey everyone again. Actually, Ingridje, I did add you. So you should be able to click the link on top and see the Archives for all the stories. You have to be logged in though. I tested this in IE, Chrome and Firefox, so there shouldn’t be any problems.
HI Amy, :heart: I’m always struck when readers say, English is not my first language, then I read what they have to say and it’s perfect!!!!! :smile:
Thanks so much for stopping by and sharing your thoughts. Merry Christmas :wub:
Catilin (or Elena) You changed your name :tongue: I’m glad this post inspired you to comment for the first time. I want everyone to know though many of the readers express how different the story is and how much they love it, every time I hear it from someone new it’s like hearing it for the first time :wub:
Especially when the person is overseas or reading in another language :w00t: I appreciate your support and you being a fan :wub:
OMG, only two more days until Christmas! :wassat:
Gosh, I hope this works and I don’t have to go through the names again!!! It took me all night!!!! :w00t:
Actually can someone do me a favor? Can one of the earlier commentators click above on the Strung Out Addicts Suite, and click one of the tabs, Bad Boy Mike, Tame the Wild Cobra or Cowboy Mike, tell me if you can see the archive for the chapters and if you can click one of them, ‘kay?
And OMG, Nuje, girl I almost forgot to answer your message. You are SOOOO funny!!!! And so blunt! :wink: I like that, tell me how you feel girl!!!!
I like your analogy. This IS like a album review party, and no, Michael would not invite Diana Dimond so she could verbally abuse him! That’s perfect!!!!
Thanks for your support and Merry Christmas :smile:
Hi Sabine. Ach, what a mess huh? You are a trooper girl, because you stand your ground no matter what and I respect that. I’ve read all the comments and I am behind you. You are the writer and the artist, no one else. I confess that I’m guilty as charged :sad: . I too have read and never left a comment. I don’t want to make excuses but I think sometimes we forget the basic things we learned in kindergarten. You know, how to say please and thank you and we get busy and forget how important it is. So thank you for reminding us and I want to officially take this time to say thank you and pullleeeze can I continue reading your fabulous wonderful stories. I don’t read nothin’ else but my CobraCrack! :wub:
Merry Christmas :heart:
Hi Mikey’s girl! Well thanks for being so honest! I appreciate and admire that!
(You know I read somewhere something that said, everything we needed to learn in life was taught to us in Kindergarten :lol: )
Merry Christmas to you too!!!!!
Hey Sabine :)
This is my first time commenting and I feel kind of guilty for not letting you know sooner how AMAZING of a writer you are. I also love the arts and writing is one of my favourite mediums and from one writer to another, just WOW, you are great at what you do. Your ability to provide escapism- I am literally lost in the story the entire time I read it :wub:
Anyway I didn’t know about all the drama going on, but I hope all is better for you now. I really enjoyed reading the story and I hope you allow me to continue :smile:
But really thank you, I hope you know your appreciated. :biggrin:
that is quite interesting, that youre mentioning this. i made a similar experience four years ago, when a lot of unpleasant events happened in my life. and the number which had a central role was number 3. until today i always have mixed feelings with that number.
enough said. i second that. especially the last sentence says it all!
its not a secret that michael was a very mystical and private person. although he grew up in front of the public eye he never lifted the veil over his private life (im sooo happy about this). i really admire his strenght and his conspicuous gallantry. he was a great and brave man.
but this fact is one of the reasons, why all the speculations came up.
people always build an idea (me too, i mean thats a part of being a michael fan i suppose-a part of his magic and im so thankful), all we can do is trust our hearts and emotions and all we have is our imagination and especially our love. imho the reason why there are a lot of fights between (specifically) mj fans is unfortunately, that michael gave us a lot of space to speculate like no other, and the way he touchs our hearts is also very special wherefore some forget about the essence of the whole magic behind this beautiful fascinating man. they become posseive and-in my opinion the worst thing: they dont respect other opinions but only want to force ther view on others.
people should simply accept the fact that we all never knew him personally and all we have is an idea, but no facts.
and as you said-not only celebs, but also in our everyday life. we should learn to accept changings (no matter what kind of changings: life-changings, personality changings and so on). its a human thing to create an idea at the beginnig of everything. first there is an idea, but some people cling to their ideas and don’t respect differences, because they confound their ideas for reality.
happy that you can see me in my comfortable clothes, with my red cuddly blanket, sitting here, with a scented oil in the air (vanilla), my notebook on my lap and hot chocolate right beside me (today with cinnamon scent) and cookies- thats a great way to end a stressy but also successfull day with lots of work. yummy. thats the way i like it. and girl, be sure that i will never get enough! and yes, stalking crack makes def sense.
i want to end this by saying: merry christmas to you and your family hun. and again: thank you for everything.
and of course id also like to wish all the readers merry christmas, too!
Hi Sabine, I know i don’t comment that much on your stories, but i ADORE your stories,, they’re very addictive, i’m not really good in english, cause it’s not my first language. i would love to be a member of CCC, but i’m already logged in with my google account, i don’t know if that makes me a member? i’m new to this :( you don’t know how many times i’ve entered here in order to read chapters over and over again. when i read some of the stuff that michael says or do, i can understand him and love him more and more and more. please don’t stop with writing. you have a gift, and no matter what people say or do, you should continue writing. thank you so much for the stories :heart:
Hi again :pinch: 2:25 a.m., I really need to get some sleep.
Hi MjsButterfly and BlueBoy10.
Blueboy10, I didn’t know before that YOU appreciated me, but now I do!!!! So thank YOU for telling me!!!!! Once I get everything running well, I’ll be able to provide access to a lot more people.
I actually I do!!!! I see you logging in all the time!!! :tongue:
You know I didn’t realize I have so many readers from overseas, but let me tell you, your English is puuuuuuurfect — there are some people in america who can hardly speak English, and they were born here :lol:
Boy, I love to hear that everyone is addicted!!!!! Yay!!!!
If you’ve logged inwith google, you’re a member but I have to give you access to the stories. I’m working on it, trust me but I haven’t totally figured it out yet.
One thing to try, I logged in here with my Google account, but it kept telling me that I was not logged in or a member when I tried to read Bad Boy Mike.
Now I know I’M a member!!!! :lol:
So I clicked this thread, and it seemed that once I did the site “recognized me” — so maybe click some random thread, let the site recognize you as logged in, and THEN click on the Bad Boy Mike link and see if it let’s you in.
Meanwhile I will try and make things easier for everyone!!! :heart:
sissy, your comment went into moderation, I don’t know why!!! anyway, I love what you wrote here:
I think there would be less bickering amongst MJ fans if there wasn’t so much identification with ideas, as if we ARE our ideas. Ideas change. In fact the only constant thing in our life is change!!!
The no. symbolizes, amongst other things, new beginnings, but from the death of things that needed to end, so maybe that is why you found the changes unpleasant? Just a thought. I have mixed feelings about change. I love it :w00t: I think it’s exciting, but that’s because it’s also very scary!!!! :lol: :cheerful:
Hot chocolate w/ cinnamon!!! :w00t: I want some!!!! :wub: Everything you described sounds wonderful. Well, let me also say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Michael is singing Give Love on Christmas Day on the playlist — my favorite!!! :wub:
Sabine, I haved only left a few comments here. I am not much of a writer however I read almost everything on your wonderful page. I am addicted to Cowboy/Bad Michael. It is one of my all time favorites Michael Fanfics. You are a wonderful writer and I hope that I can be included on your list so as not to miss any of your writing. I am sorry that you had so much drama with the troublemakers, some people always have to ruin it. Anyway hope you have a Wonderful Christmas. Thanks for all of the time you put into this site. Dawn
Hi Dawn :heart: Merry Christmas!!!! Have no fear, after the holidays I can spend more time tackling this access problem.
Thank you for the lovely compliments and for your sentiments, too. Things have changed, that’s true, but I don’t think it’s ruined . . . . yet.
:lol:
I didn’t shut this place down!!!! So we still have our Cowboy and Bad Boy Mike
Hi. I’m a pre-med college student so I’m not here often but I do pop in once in a while. Now that I’m in my last semester of school and it is winding down, I want to spend more time here and actually get to know the people here. I grew up listening to Michael Jackson and my parent love him but I didn’t really start to love him myself until my sophomore year of college. Soon after, he died and I felt like I missed out because I got such a late start. Your stories help me to feel like I actually know him. I know that sound weird but it’s so true. I didn’t know you were dealing with such opposition from other readers. I’m sorry you have to deal with that. I think that is so ungrateful, uncivilized, and just rude. If someone shares their art with you, you should be honored. You writing is your art and anyone who doesn’t appreciate it, shouldn’t be able to view it.
Merry Christmas Sabine!
I haven’t had time to check out the site lately. Thanks for all your hard work, and I’m sorry to hear of the little drama you had to deal with. I would love to continue reading the badboy mike chapters, as they are SOOO addicting :p I dont know where to find them though?
I hope you have a wonderful christmas. :heart:
Merrrry Christmas!!! Just popped over here to say Merry Christmas :heart:
Hi Fanatic J and Ek Bry-Bry!!!!
Fanatic, I like that you called it “little drama” ’cause that’s exactly what is was, little and petty :tongue:
E.K.Bry-Bry, far be it from me to keep a med-student from their studies!!!!! CobraCrack can wait!!!!
Thanks E.K. :wub: After the holidays I’ll have more time to work on the sight and give more people access.
Happy holidays everyone :wub: :heart:
So everyone, the link to the chapters are up above — it’s the tab that says, “Strung Out Addicts” but I haven’t added but a handful of people because I want to see if the program I am using works. So if you’re able to see the archive for BBM, CCM and TTWC, please let me know. So far SissyBlue was able to log in and view all the chapters!
hello sabine and everyone here! wish you all a merry christmas!
sabine hope youre doing fine girl!
Well, i know exactly what you mean by saying changings are kinda sacary! i feel the same! changes are necessary and life would be dull and dreary without them…but to tell the truth i am not a friend of changes, too! at least at the beginning, when they’re about to come, but mostly -if you are a lucky one-you recognize after a while the reason, why they happened.
oh i love the fact that you seem to be interested in numerology, too! me too! i have a book about it. well actually its about tarot cards but indludes numerology. yes, number 3 is a ‘changing’ number, a process of growth (job?, family?, love? and many more), vitality and so on, sounds good, but before that there will happen some graphically things, which are mostly unpleasant. and yes, as i said, im like you scared of changes.
well according to my book your number is associated with benediction, five represents ‘the holy guardanian angel’ , and all the things relating to education, patience, faith and help from superiors. the qualities are: belief, trust, and inspiration (!!!), quest for thruth and knowledge.
i mean there is no need to explain, why your number appeared in that time very often, after knowing this, right?!
by the way girl, i cant see the chapters anymore! :-( why that?! i can only see cowboy mike number 20, no bbm and no ttwc! when i click on them it says: the page doesnt exist!
oh i love it tooooooooooooooooo! ‘what the world needs is love, yes the world need more love.’
:heart:
um my comment went again into moderation? what is that? confusing :silly: :silly: :silly: :tongue: :biggrin:
ok just checked again: i can see them all! :-)
you know what? i should read my comments, before sending them. lol, my spelling is horrible, i mean it is slowly becoming embarrassing :-) and the thing is: there isn’t an ‘edit’ area to correct. :-)
sorry for the tripple post! :-)
Thanks Ms. Sabine. I clicked on “Strung Out Addicts” and it says “Archive Private.” But when I click on Cowboy Mike or Bad Boy Mike, I can access the chapters posted. I hope that information helps with the reconstruction of your website. If I can be of any service, please do not hesitate to let me know. (thanks honey! I took your email down, ’cause this is a public site – I can always contact you through your twitter account. :smile: )
Heey Sissy and everyone. I hope christmas was as fun and loving as it was for me. Soooo, sorry everyone, because some people can see the chapters and some can’t, back to the drawing board. BBM, CBM and TTWC will be available to SOME members very soon, when I figure this out. Not everyone, for all the reasons that I said. Just the people who I feel comfortable sharing with.
What’s my criteria: Sincerity and lack of interest in gossiping/drama — oh, yeah, the spirit of LOVE, no periods. PURE LOVE, and that’s it. Pretty simple.
Hi again. I actually have time to read again now that I am less busy. I clicked on strung out addicts suite…but nothing came out. I love Sabah and Michael for who they are & when I read the story’s it makes me smile to see Michael & so happy together. So if u could plz tell me where to go to continue reading the stories i would appreciate that. I hope you are enjoying your christmas though! take it easy & enjoy the rest of it. :smile:
Hey Sabine!! Hope you had a great Xmas.
I visit your site all the time since i discovered it a few months back and i don’t comment much but i just wanted to say that i love it and can’t believe that this ugly situation happened. I can’t see TTWC, BBM, CBM anymore but now i completely understand!!!
But anyway – keep up the good work :)
Oh and also – i think your thoughts on Michael and his situations and personality., AND the way you write is just beautiful!!!
Hi DeniseMcCaffrey, Fanatic J, thanks sooooooo much. I did have a great christmas :wub: Just spending time with my nieces and nephews and family is great! Right now, no one can see the stories unless they are given access and I have yet to fix the problem with the program I’m using.
After the holidays, I will have this all sorted out.
Thank you! I hope you had a wonderful boxing day!
& thanks again for all the hard work :)
Aw good to hear you had a good day!!! And yea i agree with FanaticJ – Thank you for the hard work!!! :)
:lol: Boxing Day? No, it’s Christmas!!!! :wub: Jesus is the reason for the season!!!! Hi Neecy :smile:
You’re welcome!!!!!
Hello Sabine ! Hope you had a great Christmas and fine :)
Thanks for the reply. Lol I was a bit nervous becoz I thought my comment didnt reach you :blush: I’m from Malaysia. The last time I went here, I was the only Malaysian visited CCC but now 10 which is great :biggrin: Readers from my county is increasing. At least now I know that I am not alone :wub: Thanks for the compliment :wub: I wish to improve more because so that I’d be able to express without difficulty. You know Sabine, I really like CCC because of the pictures you provided with the story. The pictures suited the storyline very much. It helped ease my imagination better when reading. You are really a genius :heart:
Although I cant access to the TTWC,CBM, BBM but is okay because understand how you feel Sabine. Anyway, this may sound crazy but I wish Sabah and Michael as well as Sania and Michael doing fine :happy: Thanks :smile: