20
Dec
2010
The New & Improved CCC – a note frm Sabine
“Welcome to the new and improved CCC. While on the surface it seems that not much has changed, there has been some very important modifications.
“A big part of being an actress specifically is feeling entitled to your artistic opinion, feeling that it means something, and being able to stand by it.” ~ Maggie Gyllenhaal
“I would like to start off by saying, I am an artist. That’s part of who I am, not all of who I am but a part. Writing is just one of my artistic expressions. It is not a hobby or just something I do to past the time. It’s is something I HAVE to do. It is very BIG, personal, expression of a part of me.
“Poetry is the work of poets, not of peoples or communities; artistic creation can never be anything but the production of an individual mind.” ~ Lascelles Abercrombie
“My sole and only desire in writing both Tame the Wild Cobra and first Cowboy Mike and then Bad Boy Mike was to explore and illustrate, not only the issues that Michael struggled with in his life time, but the ways in which he might have what I wished he had: True love, not by avoiding or ignoring the circumstances and problems presented to him in his life, but by, through small decisions and different choices, facing them head on. I desired to help people understand Michael, as I saw him.
“I invited readers who loved Michael and also wanted that for him to join me on this journey and escape with me into this world that I had created. If I can be credited for anything, it’s making the story so exciting and so much fun. CCC became a great place to hang out and chat and talk about the stories. But I started to notice that certain members of CCC were trying, in small and different ways, to impose their views and ideas about who they thought Michael was, how this world should look, how the love interest of Michael should act and basically how MY story should be written — how CCC should be.
“The music is a personal expression, like art. It is something that you like doing that comes from within, and is an expression that comes from God. That is why artists are beautiful and why people who copy are not really artistic.”
After months of watching this behavior escalate, after seeing a clique being formed on CCC and after having my restated purpose and intention ignored, I opted to end those memberships and then – then things got ugly. One person refused to go. I spent hours watching them attempt to log in over and over. When they succeeded, they put up a taunting email to let me know that they’d made it into CCC despite my blocking them. They sent emails to myself and other members claiming that people were stalking them on CCC and then the people became one “man”. The story became more and more unbelievable and outrageous. I reached out to other active members for support, not for them to actually do anything, but just to be a witness to the craziness that was going on. Even though some had emailed me to talk about their personal problems, to ask for advice, even though they’d come to CCC for prayers and support when they were feeling down, I was actually even given the coined apathetic response in not so many words, “I don’t want to get involved. I just want to read the stories.” But of course, as you can imagine, I can’t write in such an environment.
“My concern is to continue respecting my work as I’ve done since I began as an actor and I could only do that if I’m strong enough to keep on doing what I think best in an artistic way.” ~ Javier Bardem
So I’ve decided I will no longer share Bad Boy Mike, Cowboy Mike and Tame the Wild Cobra with the general public. I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression, who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is and who let me know that; people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally. People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story; who won’t want to slit her throat and throw her under the bus just because Michael loves her. People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex. People who are really interested in reading a love story. People who are open enough to root for Michael to make it with someone he loves. Not someone perfect. Not some boring, inconceivable door mat whom Michael could do with as he wished but a strong, beautiful, interesting woman whom HE could love, and who, though not perfect, loved him back, faults and all. In Romeo and Juliet we are rooting for the couple to make it!!!! I’ve never heard of a person who wanted Romeo to realize that Juliet is too young and immature and decided, AFTER reading the story, to write a story starring Romeo and themselves. When a director remakes a movie he does so because he LOVVVVVED the first movie. It is an act of homage and respect. When a true writer writes a story, s/he does so because s/he is inspired to write the story, not because s/he wants to compete with another writer or another story.
I want to make it clear here, I’m not saying that every writer who is writing Michael Jackson fan fiction is competing with the other. There are some very talented writers who are expressing their gift, some who are going through the stages of grief, some who are just having fun. I am speaking SPECIFICALLY about the few members who I’ve encountered who were doing what I’ve described above, and I choose not to associate with that negative energy.
I achieved my goal in Cowboy Mike which is why the story became so popular and I have continued in that spirit with Bad Boy Mike. In a more loose and fantasy environment, this is what Tame the Wild Cobra story creates as well except, it’s just more fun. And so I’d like to take this moment to express my eternal thanks to the treasured souls who have made this year plus experience both rewarding and enjoyable, without their comments and feedback to give me continued inspiration, I would have most certainly closed down CobraCrackCentral for good. And wouldn’t that have been a shame, because . . . . the stories aren’t nearly finished. I’d like to finish them, and so I am creating the environment I need to make that possible.
If you have any thoughts, comments, please feel free to express them. I believe in honest, open communication as long as it’s respectful. I’m still working on the site and giving access to as many positive people as I can, but it’s going to take some time because I have over 1,000 members!!!! The easiest way to do it is to look through the comments. If you feel I’ve missed you leave a comment here.
Merry Christmas ~ Sabine
“And doing so you can recreate yourself, and you can also come up with something that is not only original and creative and artistic, but also maybe even decent, or moral if I can use words like that, or something that’s like basically good.”~Lester Bangs
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"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
(Spike to Buffy, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.)
"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
"----->His intelligence is instinctual and emotional, like a child’s. If any artist loses that childlikeness, you lose a lot of creative juice. So Michael creates around himself a world that protects his creativity”. ~ Jane Fonda
Ohhhhh thats the problem Sabine haha, I’ll try again now :) thank you!
Help!!!! Sabine, I can’t log on! What’s going on????? :cwy:
Eureka!!! I did it!!!! :cheerful:
Basically, you’ll have to log in to post anywhere, which is how it was before, otherwise you’ll just see an excerpt and that paragraph prompting you to log in or become a member. Once you log in, go to a regular post that isn’t private to allow the computer to “recognize you”. If you do have access, you will see all the PRIVATE chapters!!!!
Now, it’s time for me to go to sleep!!!!!
p.s. Boyblue, you’ll need to log in with the account that you have access with.
Hi Sabine!
Sabine , i’ve been a long time lurker for months and this my first time commenting.I usually like to sit behind the screen, so my mind is racing on what to write you know (LOL) On my old computer, it logs me on automatically when i come on the site , so i lost my password so i made a new account..But what im asking is if i could have access to the chapters,because i really love your work. I know you are proabably very busy,and you can’t do every at once , so i can wait as long as it takes. Thanks! :heart:
Hi Sabine I was wondering if you could help me figure out why I can’t get access to your stories. I would really like to read them again.
Hello, Sabine. Much like Shanice, I’ve been reading your stories since the very beginning but I’ve always been too shy to comment. I just wanted to see if there’s any way I could gain access to the private stories. Honestly I don’t know what I’ll do with myself if I can’t continue reading your stories. They’ve been one of my major outlets for over a year now. I feel like I’ve been dumped, haha. I totally understand why you’ve made them private and I back you 100%, but I just wanted to ask If I could continue reading. I understand if I can’t, just thought I’d come out of my shell and ask. Thanks!
Hi Sabine, sorry to be a nuisance, but I still cannot read the private stories. I have logged in and have done what you detailed above, but I suppose I am doing something wrong. Thanks! xx
HEY SABINE! HAPPY NEW YEAR! :biggrin: I THINK I CAN SEE THE STORIES NOW. :wassat:
THANK YOU! ((((((HUGS AND KISSES))))))
BUT JUST THE OLD CHAPTERS, THOUGH. ARE YOU DOING SOME SITE MAINTENANCE?
Hey guys :smile:
Liz, you’re not being a nuisance, you should be okay now, but I notice there are two Liz though i just gave access to you :smile:
Dani, honey, if you can see the old chapters, you can see the new ones, too. I haven’t separated them into two categories. :smile:
JeanClaude, I’ve been watching you log in and out, and wondering if you’d ever say anything!!!
Well, I’m happy you decided to give it a try and comment :smile: So congratulations!! See what you get when you come outta your shell?
Shanice, hi, :heart:
It’s very nice to hear from you! You’re all set, too.
oh shoot I almost forgot. :cheerful:
Rikki, if you want to know why you can’t access to the story, just go ahead and read this post.
hi sabine,
its been a loonnggg weekend for me. my hard drive failed, i just got a new one and starting to put everything back together. I can’t see any of the chapters so i guess i’m checking again to see if i have access.
Thanks!
What post I’m lost? Are you talking bout the note or your comment?
Hi Ricki, I’m talking about the post that you are commenting on right now. Look up, it’s right above all the comments :smile: The name of the post is The New & Improved CCC, and I wrote it because I changed the way people were able to see the stories and I wanted to explain why.
Ohhhhh ok now I get it. Lol! So now only you can grant people access to read the story now cause other poeple were being ignorant and rude. So you changed how you access the stories and stuff. So now that I know the why how do I get access?
Just started to read Cowboy Mike – thrilling stuff thank you Sabine. I don’t know what i’ll do when i finish!! LOL and the photos from the Caribou Ranch shoot are my favorite photos of MJ ever!! Thank you! x
:w00t: Thrilling? Really? Yay!!! I’m glad you like it.
Well, there’s always Bad Boy Mike if you haven’t read it already!!!
Hey Ricki,
Um, well, not quite, I’ll just quote myself, it’s easier :smile:
So the “how do I get access” is if you meet those seven criteria. :smile:
If I think you do, I will grant you access. :wub:
If I don’t think you do, I will not grant you access :pouty:
Ok I’m all of the above. I LOVE MJfics espeacially yours its the best one I’ve ever read I’ve read “Cowboy Mike” Like 10 ten times. Your art is amazing. I don’t even know how it is possible to complete with a fictional character but that could just be me I don’t think that makes sense its alil on the crazy side to me. I don’t really care for the sex parts I just care for the plot the point its being written. For love.
Really ten times? Get outta here!!!! Well, thanks for saying so! I’d sure never know if you didn’t tell me. Yes, you’re right, at least for me, the stories are being written about love.
:heart:
Yea ten times like for a month it was all I read but its really long so it took some times. Yea I mean the stories really helped me getting over losing MJ idk why but they did so I’m thankful for that.
I’m glad they helped you deal with his death. It would have meant a lot if you had said something while you were reading them :smile:
Hi Sabine
:cheerful: How are you girl!!! long time. Had time to comment today, home from work. I posted something under the TTWC preview a short while back and I’ve left a few comments on here as well, but I think you may have missed my comments, as I didn’t get a line or two back from you.
Yes I read you have over 1000 members so I just wanted to let you know again I also don’t have access so please do keep me in the list if you feel so.
I miss home so much. Coming here and talking to all of you and reading about Michael is my little piece of America here. I miss the food, and having other comforts, but its not all bad.
So do let me know!!!!
I’ll try to leave more in depth comments if I can find the time in my WAY busy schedule, bye and laterz.
I’m kinda shy bout commenting in stuff thats why I never said anythign up to now.
Well, it’s okay to be shy. Michael was shy wasn’t he? :heart:
This is not personal and I don’t require people to comment at all. I believe people should do what they want to do/feel genuinely in their heart.
But I also don’t want to feel resentment because I feel like I’m being used or unappreciated.
I remember one of the people who worked with Michael told this story, and it broke my heart. He said Michael had a listening party after hewas done with the Bad album, and invited the big execs in Sony over to his house to listen to the album. He said after they listened they all got up and walked out, never saying a word. And he said Michael was crying and said, I won’t do this again; this is the last time.
I mean, what were these executives made of stone? To me, to do that, to walk out that room and not say one word to Michael is just heartless, so that is where I’m coming from. That’s how I feel about that topic.
I have to create the type of environment that feels loving and supportive and allows me to create, and that’s pretty much what this is all about.
Everybody has been, for the most part, very loving and supportive . . . . and patient, and I am very grateful for that.
We love your art Ms. Sabine. You’re definitely appreciated.
Awww thank you, EK :wub: :wub: :wub: :heart:
Ms. Sabine, reminds me of my neice, she would call me Mr. Bean :lol:
Mr. Bean? Why?
Btw: My name is Erica.
Hi Erica!!!! Makes me think of that woman on All My Children. :biggrin: Ms. Sabine Mister Bean, get it!!! :lol: — she would watch him on t.v. and get confused!!!! She was little, like 3!
Dang that is cold-blooded and rude very disrespectful. Also I agree with Ericka we love your art.
Isn’t it? :pouty: I think rude pretty much sums it up.
thanks :heart:
Sabine …how can I access the bad boy 3? thanks!
You can start by actually reading this post :tongue:
i am very confused. i use to login from school, but now I can’t see anything but a few pages.
Hey Jennifer. If you read this post, you won’t be so confused. :smile:
HI Sabine!
I did read the post. I am very sorry you have had so many problems. I am confused because I thought I had access but I can still only see a few pages here. So maybe I wasn’t a member? Do I have to comment to be a member? Sorry, I don’t know.
I have not been on here a lot because my laptop got stolen at school and I could not afford a new one. I am sneaking on here from my boyfriends computer.
I hope that I get on and continue to read more of the stories, because I love them so much.
Hi Jennifer. From what I see, you became a member recently, Jan 16th @ 10:33 p.m., to be exact. There was never a JenniferDobson before, unless you went by some other name that I’m not aware of. If you read the post though, I’m not sure why you thought you had access. As I said in the post, I have decided to only allow access to the story for people that I choose. There’s nothing anyone can “do” to get it — it’s a gift, it has to be given.
As far as commenting, if someone wants to comment genuinely, that’s fine and of course I appreciate it but seriously I encourage every one to do exactly what they want to do. If a person decides to comment on prior chapters just so they can get access to the stories that’s pretty dishonest, IMO, and I’ll be able to see through that very quickly.
I’m not looking for dishonest praise or support. I’m just interested in having a positive, fun and safe environment for me to create. :smile:
I said in a prior comment to someone asking the same question what I was looking for, but here it is again — it’s exactly what I wrote in the post. I’m not sure how much more clear I can be or what the confusion is but I hope this helps and thanks in advance for understanding :smile: .
1) I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression,
2) who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is
3) and who let me know that;
4) people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally.
5) People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story;
6) People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex.
7) People who are really interested in reading a love story.
Sabine I was wondering if you were gone grant me access or not?
Hi Rikki. I have over 2,000 members. Everyone has got to patient. Thanks :smile:
Hi Sabine!
Okay, now I understand. Thank you for clarifying. I misunderstood this post. I did just join with this email on the weekend, because I thought that once I joined with Google Friend Connect I would be a member and have access. I was a subscriber with my my old account from yahoo.
I really do love all your stories so I hope I get to read them again soon. I really miss them because I have not be able to get online for a long time since I had no computer at school
I know you have lots of members and I see others asking for access too, so I will wait my turn. Prince Michael is worth the wait! :biggrin:
Thanks Jennifer. :smile: What was your old subscriber name?
Ok no problem.
Hey Sabine!
I’ve never commented before but I’ve been reading cowboy mike since the very beginning…I’ve been away for awhile and havent had the opportunity to read any of bad boy mike yet :(….I came back and recently saw all the new changes….I love this story and would love to continue on and read bad boy mike but im not sure how? If I understand correctly you have to add me to gain access? Thank you so much for what you do!
Hi JudiShoesmith,
I’ve said over and over in this post and in my comment how much I value comments and feedback. Maybe I haven’t also been clear about how I feel about people who read but do not comment, so I’m going to be extra clear. The most common reason a person is locked out from reading BBM, CBM and TTWC is simple:
If you’re locked out now, it’s either because I never heard so much as a thank you, I appreciate the story from you, it’s as simple as that. If you were commenting, and not overly identifying with the sex in the story (basically only commenting about the sex and dismissing the storyline/ or overly criticizing the love interest [basically telling me how to write] I would have automatically included you when I made the stories private.
Now for new comers. I’d love to let everyone read, but I’m not going to do that unless i know who I’m letting into my personal space.
Do I think it’s rude to read for over a year and never say thank you? To put it plainly, Yes. I think it takes two seconds to write a comment that says thank you. You don’t have to be a great writer or even fluent in English. You don’t have to write a novel. I’m just restating this clearly so that people understand where I’m coming from.
There’s no requirement to comment — everyone should do what they feel. But if you’ve read for a year and never commented it should be no surprise why you’re locked out now.
If the question is, okay, I’ve never commented before but what do I do NOW to get access? The answer is there’s nothing you can do. If you want to comment, comment. If you don’t, don’t comment. I will decide who to let in based on the sincerity I feel coming from the comments. If you say nothing, then well, I’m not approving people I’ve never heard from.
I just wanted to be crystal clear because people are asking me the same questions. Thanks for understanding :smile:
Hey Sabine, sorry to annoy you but you know the way i’ve been loving Cowboy Mike these days and can’t stop reading it :p well i went to read the next part tonight as my usual nighttime routine and Error 404 came up – was just wondering if i did anytjing or how do i fix it? I need my fix!!! LOL
Thanks!!
Hey Neecy. That’s ’cause you logged in with your twitter account and not the hotmail one. The hot mail on is the one that has access. :smile:
Thanks Sabine!! :) I’ll sort it now :)
I’ll be honest, i didn’t realise i had logged in with both twitter AND hotmail lol, but i can’t get logged in any other way apart from through twitter :p I’m sitting here trying everything and ain’t nothing working! confuzzled right now :tongue:
Sorry, i realise this is three comments in a row (addicted?lol) but while i was messing about trying to log in with hotmail, i think i’ve changed my profile. just to let ya know. Now i’ll stop!! LOL :angel:
(cos dam i’m annoying!)
L.O.V.E. :angel:
Hey girl, I’m sorry I didn’t get back to you until now but I’ve been sick as a dog today!!!
Okay, it’s a mystery, both “accounts” say Twitter, but have different emails, one has hotmail and the other google friend connect but don’t worry about it, I think you should be okay now. Let me know if you can’t see anything.
Sorted now! Thank you so much!!! :D I have so many accounts i didn’t know which one i used for this site lol.
THANK YOU!!!
Back to my reading…. :biggrin:
I just want to say that I’m sorry that you feel the way you do. I want to apologize for not commenting as much as I would like to (but I have commented before)
Thank you for all your hard work you have put into this story
Keep up the great work
:heart: Spreading the love :heart:
~Sandra :smile: