20
Dec
2010
The New & Improved CCC – a note frm Sabine
“Welcome to the new and improved CCC. While on the surface it seems that not much has changed, there has been some very important modifications.
“A big part of being an actress specifically is feeling entitled to your artistic opinion, feeling that it means something, and being able to stand by it.” ~ Maggie Gyllenhaal
“I would like to start off by saying, I am an artist. That’s part of who I am, not all of who I am but a part. Writing is just one of my artistic expressions. It is not a hobby or just something I do to past the time. It’s is something I HAVE to do. It is very BIG, personal, expression of a part of me.
“Poetry is the work of poets, not of peoples or communities; artistic creation can never be anything but the production of an individual mind.” ~ Lascelles Abercrombie
“My sole and only desire in writing both Tame the Wild Cobra and first Cowboy Mike and then Bad Boy Mike was to explore and illustrate, not only the issues that Michael struggled with in his life time, but the ways in which he might have what I wished he had: True love, not by avoiding or ignoring the circumstances and problems presented to him in his life, but by, through small decisions and different choices, facing them head on. I desired to help people understand Michael, as I saw him.
“I invited readers who loved Michael and also wanted that for him to join me on this journey and escape with me into this world that I had created. If I can be credited for anything, it’s making the story so exciting and so much fun. CCC became a great place to hang out and chat and talk about the stories. But I started to notice that certain members of CCC were trying, in small and different ways, to impose their views and ideas about who they thought Michael was, how this world should look, how the love interest of Michael should act and basically how MY story should be written — how CCC should be.
“The music is a personal expression, like art. It is something that you like doing that comes from within, and is an expression that comes from God. That is why artists are beautiful and why people who copy are not really artistic.”
After months of watching this behavior escalate, after seeing a clique being formed on CCC and after having my restated purpose and intention ignored, I opted to end those memberships and then – then things got ugly. One person refused to go. I spent hours watching them attempt to log in over and over. When they succeeded, they put up a taunting email to let me know that they’d made it into CCC despite my blocking them. They sent emails to myself and other members claiming that people were stalking them on CCC and then the people became one “man”. The story became more and more unbelievable and outrageous. I reached out to other active members for support, not for them to actually do anything, but just to be a witness to the craziness that was going on. Even though some had emailed me to talk about their personal problems, to ask for advice, even though they’d come to CCC for prayers and support when they were feeling down, I was actually even given the coined apathetic response in not so many words, “I don’t want to get involved. I just want to read the stories.” But of course, as you can imagine, I can’t write in such an environment.
“My concern is to continue respecting my work as I’ve done since I began as an actor and I could only do that if I’m strong enough to keep on doing what I think best in an artistic way.” ~ Javier Bardem
So I’ve decided I will no longer share Bad Boy Mike, Cowboy Mike and Tame the Wild Cobra with the general public. I desire to share this story with people who appreciate my artistic expression, who respect all the hard work it takes to make a story like this work and to make CCC as beautiful as it is and who let me know that; people who desire FOR Michael a life that included his OWN lover, not themselves, but someone who matched him emotionally. People who won’t compete with a fictional love interest in a story; who won’t want to slit her throat and throw her under the bus just because Michael loves her. People who are not interested in just reading about Michael having sex. People who are really interested in reading a love story. People who are open enough to root for Michael to make it with someone he loves. Not someone perfect. Not some boring, inconceivable door mat whom Michael could do with as he wished but a strong, beautiful, interesting woman whom HE could love, and who, though not perfect, loved him back, faults and all. In Romeo and Juliet we are rooting for the couple to make it!!!! I’ve never heard of a person who wanted Romeo to realize that Juliet is too young and immature and decided, AFTER reading the story, to write a story starring Romeo and themselves. When a director remakes a movie he does so because he LOVVVVVED the first movie. It is an act of homage and respect. When a true writer writes a story, s/he does so because s/he is inspired to write the story, not because s/he wants to compete with another writer or another story.
I want to make it clear here, I’m not saying that every writer who is writing Michael Jackson fan fiction is competing with the other. There are some very talented writers who are expressing their gift, some who are going through the stages of grief, some who are just having fun. I am speaking SPECIFICALLY about the few members who I’ve encountered who were doing what I’ve described above, and I choose not to associate with that negative energy.
I achieved my goal in Cowboy Mike which is why the story became so popular and I have continued in that spirit with Bad Boy Mike. In a more loose and fantasy environment, this is what Tame the Wild Cobra story creates as well except, it’s just more fun. And so I’d like to take this moment to express my eternal thanks to the treasured souls who have made this year plus experience both rewarding and enjoyable, without their comments and feedback to give me continued inspiration, I would have most certainly closed down CobraCrackCentral for good. And wouldn’t that have been a shame, because . . . . the stories aren’t nearly finished. I’d like to finish them, and so I am creating the environment I need to make that possible.
If you have any thoughts, comments, please feel free to express them. I believe in honest, open communication as long as it’s respectful. I’m still working on the site and giving access to as many positive people as I can, but it’s going to take some time because I have over 1,000 members!!!! The easiest way to do it is to look through the comments. If you feel I’ve missed you leave a comment here.
Merry Christmas ~ Sabine
“And doing so you can recreate yourself, and you can also come up with something that is not only original and creative and artistic, but also maybe even decent, or moral if I can use words like that, or something that’s like basically good.”~Lester Bangs
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"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
(Spike to Buffy, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.)
"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee." W. Shakespeare
"----->His intelligence is instinctual and emotional, like a child’s. If any artist loses that childlikeness, you lose a lot of creative juice. So Michael creates around himself a world that protects his creativity”. ~ Jane Fonda
Hey Sabine, I hope you remember me. My name was Pink Frosting on here before. I’m sorry I stayed away so long, Grad school had me so busy, i had no time for myself. I don’t see my Pink Frosting account under the members bar. I had access to the private stories before.
I see so much had changed for the better. I still love your stories and hope you will grant me access again. :blush:
I will check back later for your response. Take care.
You again :tongue:
I answered you at the bar. Girl, your account I think still has access, if I’m not mistaken, but I went ahead and gave this one access, too.
Enjoy! And thanks for the flowers :wink:
Lol, I know I know. I’m sorry I keep disappearing. But shoot, I need to get back into my reading, and what better way to do it than with your wonderful stories. Ok, I think I was logged on under my blog, but forgot my password. Thank you so much!
Muah!
*off to the bar* :w00t:
Lol, I know I know. I’m sorry I keep disappearing. But shoot, I need to get back into my reading, and what better way to do it than with your wonderful stories. Ok, I think I was logged on under my blog, but forgot my password. Thank you so much!
Muah!
off to the bar :w00t:
Hi Sabine, I love your blog! If you don’t mind I would like to go on reading Cowboy Mike, especially after reading the next sneak preview…
Some months ago I read the first 12 parts I think and I simply loved it. I once had the nickname “siguen” – “Silvie” is my real name. I live in Germany and love reading about Michael. I was glad when I discovered your website with the great articles and stories. Your way of writing is beautiful and sensitive, mainly because you really love and understand Michael and know quite a lot about him.
So if you would let me read Cowboy Mike and the other stories, you’d make my day and all further days to come ! :smile: If not now, I’ll understand.
Hugs, Silvie
Siguen! You should have said so! :bye:
Thank you for your appreciation. I remember some of your sweet comments from before. Are you really in Germany, it says Denmark over here on my side, now I have to pull out my map and confess my geological ignorance :lol:
Ahhh, Denmark and Germany share a border. You know these things can be quite inaccurate!
Awwwwwww! :thankyou:
Really, I appreciate you saying that. I would like to think I try very hard to understand Michael. Of course you can read the stories honey.
My making them private is really to create the type of environment I need to keep on writing, and I think everyone who loves and appreciates these stories can understnad that!!!!!
Happy :reading:
Hi, Sabine.
First of all thank you for giving me access!! :heart:
I registered again with my twitter account because I thought google didn’t work anymore, but then I noticed that the stories were meanwhile private… BTW, I understand that very well!
Yesterday I read the second part of the Lisa-story (Why Debbie)… It moved me very much and will write comment later on!
Have a great day… :thankyou:
Help me please I don’t know how to log out of the site…. :cwy: I couldn’t figure out the correct place to ask this question so I landed here as it discusses password etc…ok for now just going to close off tab..i’ll chk back fro response later on this week…Thank you. I hope you have a great week!
Log out? :smile: Why would you want to do that!!!!
:confused:
Do you mean log in!!!?!?!?!
Hello Sabine,
It’s me again. I remembered I dropped a comment not long ago but I couldnt find it :( Not sure where it went because I clicked the older comments thrice but couldnt see mine. I came to give a reply to your comment if you had given yours but no luck of finding my post at all. I dont think my comment was more than 2 months ago. Do you think I could search my old comments ? Hehe I’m an IT student with almost zero knowledge on features,tools of a website XD Thanks so much hun !
Btw, I just finished my finals and getting ready to find a job :)
I miss CCC and Michael so much. I must get my old life back. Having to sit in front computer and enjoy your beautiful work :blush: Miss those days :sad:
It’s pretty easy for me to tell if someone has commented before because it says so, from where I’m sitting, right under your name!
:tongue:
So I can assure you that nope, you’ve never commented before, at least not with this account! :biggrin:
Congratulations on finishing your finals but ugh, job hunting, I don’t envy you!
Sooooooooooooooooooo who were you before you were smile4mjj!!!!!??!?!?! Could it be — Amy!!! :lol:
Hi Amy, :bye: Nice to hear from you again! You’re already approved with your twitter account! By the way, you left a comment on the Forget the Password post :wink:
Hey Sabine!
I’ve not been on in a long time because I have been CRAZY busy at school, but I love your stories. It always made me happy to read them whether they made me cry or laugh or smile. Michael was a wonderful person and he deserved the best. Your stories blend fiction and reality so well that sometimes I almost forgot that they are fan fiction. I absolutely love these love stories, and I would love to be able to read them again. :smile:
Again? Are you an old member? Have you ever left a comment? Tell me who you were, maybe you already have access!!! :smile:
Hi Sabine,
I haven’t been on this site in a very long time…never got the chance to finish Cowboy Mike. If you could please let me have access again. I would really appreciate it! I LOVE your stories and I have missed them a lot! My dear sister Nicki sent me here awhile ago and AGAIN, I am missing these stories. Thank you so much for your time. Rhonda :smile:
Nicki’s your sister! Damn, that’s my sister too!!!! Any sister of Nicki’s is a sister of mine :smile:
Hey Sabine, I wanted to re-read some of BBM but my access is denied. Although I previously was able to read and comment on the Mirror, Mirror on the wall post, so I don’t know what could be wrong.
OK lol, I got it! I have to ask for access to the private stories… Can I have access please? I want to read Bad Mike so bad… why on earth imagining him rough and overly self-confident drives me crazy?? I’ll never know.
But unfortunately, I’m on a hiatus right now!!!!
:sorry: If you want to read the other two books, you can visit the gift shop up on the top. You should really read Cowboy Mike before Bad Boy Mike because Bad Boy Mike is a sequel, and it’s not even finished!
Hi Sabine! I’m new here, but so far I love it!! You are a very talented writer! I’m so glad I discovered CCC! Thanks, Love, M
Hi Misty,
Thanks, I’m glad you like it. Enjoy.
i’m not exactly new * been browsing quite a while now* and I appreciate ur work
:thankyou:
Hi friend
This site sounds wonderful – the time you have devoted to creating a safe haven for all who love Michael Joe Jackson and a place where they can escape into the fantasy of a beautiful story about his life, the sort of life he should have been entitled to enjoy instead of all the pain, heartache and loneliness he endured.
Thank you so much for this – thank you for sharing your talents and these beautiful images with us all
I very much look forward to hearing from you Sabine
Bless you
L.O.V.E xx
Hello Barbara,
Thank you for your kind and beautiful words! I’m glad that you are able to appreciate all the time and energy that has gone into this site! Please let me know what you think of the stories! :smile:
Hey Nancy,
Thank you too!!! You’re very sweet. According to haters I am a “failed writer” :lol: What’s success to them? I write because I love it! Please believe haters are not keeping me from writing! I am always writing, I just don’t particularly want to have anything to do with this world while that kind of behavior is going on, and it seems that Michael’s worlds comes with so much ugliness — its’ like a package deal!!! Such downer! :pinch:
Honestly, if I had more people stand up and say, in the place where it was happening, hey bullying this person is wrong, I would have been more happy to write this story for all fans. But instead, I observed so many people who will jump up and go to bat for Michael and his children in a heart beat say NOTHING when my own children and myself were called all types of names, and that doesn’t make sense to me! How can you go on and on about how Michael was mistreated by the media and the world at large and not stand up when it happens in front of your face and say no, that’s wrong. Truthfully, only a handful of Michael Jackson fans have said anything about the way I’ve been treated. :sad:
This in particular left a sour taste in my mouth about “fandom”; I never liked the obsessive way that people “loved” Michael, which I really felt had nothing to do with him as a person and that sort of confirmed my opinion. If a person loves Michael as a human being, then they can’t see another human being attacked in his name and stay silent, because they can see the humanity in all but if he was just a sex symbol and looked at as an “object” then defending him is really just protecting this thing you like, like your favorite ball. Others can smash another’s person’s favorite toy to pieces and you could careless, at least that’s how I see it.
:kiss: So that’s why I really value when people like you, Nancy, and Barbara and the many other kind hearted and good people speak up, because well you know, haters are really LOUD! :lol:
Sabine,
I was taught a long time ago never to judge a person by the color of their skin and the money they have in their pockets… I try and uphold those values and teach them to my children…It is truly unfortunate that in this day and age people still hate and judge…it truly bothers me….
It reminds me of a story when my boys were about 5 years old and started to realize people of different races..I remember so vividly one of my sons asking why the lady on line was so dark…while most moms would be mortified. As many of the other shoppers were as they looked at me wondering what I would do!! I took it as a learning experience for my sons.. I told them that God created people all different colors…He looked at me more puzzled..and said why…You’d think I would back down and say stop…never..I went on to tell them that most African American people were born in a place where the sun shone very hot and God made their skin dark to help shield them from the sun..Something clicked in him that day and he said I understand mommy God made all people beautiful because he loved us! I couldn’t have been more proud…When I left that store that day the black woman was waiting outside and came up to me….She was smiling and thanked me for what I said….My boys are now well rounded fine young men that treat all people with respect and never judge them because of the color of their skin or the amount of money in their pockets….
If parents don’t teach their children….society will never change…..As Michael says WE Have to make that change! It is something I believe with all my heart…
Whenever you are ready to post what you write I will be here to read it…but as I have said don’t ever make those people who hate and not want change in the world ruin your spirit and gift…
I guess those who hate need to be silenced by those of us who are kind hearted and good!!!
Nancy
hey sabine i hope your doing good and take as much time as you need ill be here when you are ready to start sharing again much love.
That’s a beautiful story, Nancy. I love children because they are so open! :smile: I think the worst thing that happens to us as we get older is how closed minded human beings can be.
Hi Michelle, thank you for understanding! I wish it was different but I really just can’t fake it, my perfectionist self wouldn’t dare, and it wouldn’t be fare to everyone else!!!! :yes:
Hello! I’m all topsy tervy ! How do I gain access to al the juicy chapeters help me! :wacko: I registerd im here posting..boy am I confused.
:bye:
Right up top, in the right hand corner it says “Addicted to Love, Choose your poison” — point the mouse to that, and it shows you the short stories that are open to all members.
Hello Sabine! May I please be granted access to the private chapters. I am feining to read Bad Boy Mike and Cowboy Mike :blush:
You don’t have to feen to read Cowboy Mike — all you have to do is buy the book :tongue:
I am new and love it here and keep trying to log in which I have but haven’t been able to post hope this goes through and I can start reading. This is so much better than the original site thanks so much
Could you explain to me how I get access to the private chapters I have read everything you posted here but I am still stupid I guess!
Susan,
Did you read this post and/or some of the comments?
hey Sabine this is Lisa here. I keep forgetitng passwords for login so now I am using twitter to log in. Are you going to post a new chapter of Michael and Sabah?
Hi Lisa, I’m sorry it took me a bit to reply. Will I write a new chapter! That’s the question of the day, huh? Truthfully I’ve lost my inspiriation. Mostly because I feel unsupported by MJ fans. I want to explain, the Michael Jackson haters who are attacking me, what they are doing to me could happen to anyone. I can go online, write a comment — forget about you, I can write it in your name. I can go on Topix, write that I am you, using your name and say something disgusting, like I am looking for a child to kidnap or rape, and Google will index this comment in your name and it will appear on the first page of a search! How f-ed up is that? I can use a proxy server and make it seem like I am posting from where you live, and if I know you, I can use details to make it seem like I am really you. I think all michael Jackson fans should have a problem with someone being abused like this — actually every human being should have a problem with this!!!!
Anyway, I did really feel unsupported and as if the only thing MJ fans care about is MJ!!! But I channelled my frustration and created a petition, and I would really like as much people as possible to sign it; that would make me happy.
And guess what, a happy Sabine is a writing Sabine!
Here is the link https://www.change.org/petitions/boycott-the-advertisers-on-topix-com-let-them-know-you-will-no-longer-do-business-with-them#
Hello, I hope I’m posting in the right place :)
I am kinda new on your site and I would like so much to have access to read the stories you say they are private.
I remember back in the day I found your blog. I remember reading some of the stories and loved them so much. I remember one story that kept bugging me till now, I would love to re-read it…It was so beautiful. I remember the girl was called Saniya (spelling?). I loved it so much…I don’t remember the tithe though…
I’m glad I found yout blog again.
Have you ever considered writing a book and publish it? I loved that story so much….
Love u and I hope I will be received on your blog, despite being kinda new. :)
Hi Miriac,
You’re talking about Tame the Wild Cobra, the name is Saniia. I did publish it!!!!! :yes:
If you want to buy the book, the link is http://www.lulu.com/shop/sabine-faustin/tame-the-wild-cobra-soft-cover/paperback/product-18821243.html
I wish you’d have commented when you read, especially since you loved it — comments give me inspiration to continue writing; I enjoy them.
It’s really wonderful though that the story stayed in your head! :smile:
I’ve been having a hard time getting my inspiration back because of some negative experiences with mj fans and haters but hopefully I’ll get my inspiration back soon.