28
Sep
2010
Will There Be Another Chapter?
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"----->His intelligence is instinctual and emotional, like a child’s. If any artist loses that childlikeness, you lose a lot of creative juice. So Michael creates around himself a world that protects his creativity”. ~ Jane Fonda
Hi Sabine,i think it's very nice that you've started this discussion.I'm sure each one of us has his own reasons why we're reading CM or BBM or PM and i'm sure there are people who are interested in his sexy side only.What intrigued me in this site was that you saw Michael as a whole person and not only as an icon or a sex symbol.He knew that people used to see the persona in him and not the person and he wasn't happy for that.What i liked about CM it's exactly that......you've presented to us Michael as a human being with his imperfections,his insecurities,his flaws but with his kindness,his tenderness,his loving soul,his flirtatious and his sexy side as well,we are all like this after all.Reading CM i had the impression that i know him,i can understand him better,that he's my friend.You're writing about him with respect and love and i never had the feeling that you wrote about his sexy side only.I thought that he should have been like that,as you describe him...kind,sweet,beautiful,shy,stubborn,lovely,bold,insecure,sexy,lonely,yearning for love.He was very misunderstood in life and i think he'll be happy from where he's now that at last there are writers like you Sabine,with the ability and the sensibility,to make all of us to get to know him better and to love him even more for the wonderful human being he was....(sorry for my English,i hope you understand me)
i agree with the others u do have to follow your heart...and i never for a second thought u were protraying michael as a sexual object....to me this a simple a love story this something that i always wished for michael (wished it was me but i digress) lol anyway....its comforting to read about michael being in love it helps during this time when the majority of us are still grieving ....thank you so much because this is more than fanfic ------peace and blessings
Okay – so I see this thing in my email yesterday and I think, I am delirious from my fever and I go off back to bed to pass out, only wake up and see it is still in my inbox and not my fever but a real email. OYE!
Now honey – I am sick as a dog – I haven’t been to work in a week, I look and feel like crap - but I am here to comment for you - because I feel it is important for you to hear this.
I started to read a couple comments before I started to type this – but then thought:
A. I currently don’t have the stamina to read thru them all
B. I want to say what I think, without being influenced by others or your replies to them.
I can always come back when my head and chest aren’t full of gunk and I stop feeling like a big midlife hot flash in a sauna for more than a few seconds – but right now this is me talking from my heart. I hope it makes sense.
You know Sabz – I have mentioned numerous times how I found you over at blogger – which will be a year in December – and what hooked me was how sexy you made Michael... and how real you made him to me.
Now before I tell you what else you have made Michael to me... let me tell you about my Michael before you.
I count myself fortunate that I have had Michael in my life my ENTIRE life and to have seen him live. I don’t ever remember a time without him... I fell in love with him just like everybody else did in the 70s – but as I got older and as he got older and sexier – I not only loved him, I lusted over him too.
And why the hell not?
I will not lie – and I think you would know if I was – he was the sexiest thing in the world to me. And I don’t have any problems expressing it here in my comments (umm, as you might have noticed) or in private.
My hands are shaking right now when I think what that man did to my libido in the 80s to mid 90s – man alive *sigh* I can’t even really explain it – he was everything sexual you could think of – all wrapped up in tight black pants and shiny glimmer silvery and sparkly things that would make my heart and other parts just beat a little faster...
The best way I can explain it - is when I watch the video Another Part of Me... LOOK at that man shaking his find sexy sweaty lithe body.... ohhhh! I can’t help it but salivate at his presence... and even now when I watch that video – more than 20 years later – you know I feel the same way - every single damn time... period. He makes me feel 16 all over again.
Of course I knew how sweet and shy he was... that is what made his onstage persona and performances’ even sexier because you knew he was so sweet too... just what ever girl wants.
So if I know all that – what do you do for me? Why am I even here?
Sabine, girl, sit down a minute and listen to me.
You make it real. You make him real. You make him human even when I still think he is super human. You show me his tenderness and his vulnerabilities. You show me Michael the man. And even more impressive you make me worry, fret, cheer and care for that man and his happiness – even in fiction.
You remind me of why he was such a good man. Basically, you make Michael all things Michael. And not to sound cliché you really do make me LOVE him more and I honestly didn’t think that was possible.
You are not perpetuation stereotype or promoting the sexual side of Michael. People are going to think that even if you didn’t write about it.
Let’s be serious - he was a gorgeous super hot sexy man – and I love my sexy Michael... oh GOD do I ever and even buried under that shy gorgeous exterior – he knew how to be sexual – and I think he did enjoy it and my little girl heart thanks him every day! Thank you Michael for being so sexy!
The simple truth is - I can find dirty fan-fiction anywhere on the net on any subject! Hell I can make it up in my head!
The sex made me stop and read - but it is not what keeps me here.
Thank you Sabine for making me stay.
xx
your blog drunk
(going back to bed now and of course I am taking my sexy Michael with me – I hope when I come back my bad boy has returned for more thrills!)
I loved your response MGirl, Michael was hella sexy
I also can't get enough of that "Another Part of Me" video
To MartiniGirl....Amen I could not have said that better.
well said MartiniGirl
I just want to say that while there may be some people who like this site just for the sexy part, I am not one of them. I have become an addict because your stories go a lot deeper than just sex and I LOVE that. I think you do a very good job of showing both sides.
Sabine...
Randy and Michael were veryyyyyyyy close
look what i found..
aren't they cute?
Hi everyone!!! Katerina, Mariakouraki, Jeanine, Foreverinmyheart, and Amanda!!!
I wanna thank you all for taking the time out to express yourself on this subject. I think what everyone has to say is important, and it gives me an opportunity to assess my audience and also the effect I'm having -- basically to question - how am i coming across.
Mariakouraki, your english is perfect, and I understood you perfectly, as it seems you've understood me! and that's important to me, so thanks for that.
Katerina, you are so right, and I totally agree about sex being natural between a couple in love. here in America, let me tell you, we are so repressed and sex is still that BIG topic that people tip toe around, while at the same time it's all around us and we promote it like crazy to sell products and programs. It's a little crazy!!!!!!!
So I want to emphasize, for me, the issue is NOT is there too much sex in CM or BM -- I mean, yes, YES there's a lot of sex!!!!!! But I think it's fun!!!
Amanda, thank you for saying that you believe I show both sides . . . that's very important to me that I'm showing both sides.
Mgirl, awwww, first I wanna say I'm so sorry that you're sick!!!!! I hope you're feeling better real soon. Like Frodes, I was interested to hear what you have to say on this subject since you're pretty outspoken!!!!!
I think you've unwittingly become the voice of the
I LOVE BAD BOY MIKE HE WAS SO FREAKIN' SEXY crew!!!!!! 
I mean there's not a person in THEIR RIGHT MIND who can disagree that Michael was the sexiest thing walking when he hit that stage -- good Lord!
I'm hyperventilating just thinking about it!!!!!!! And then even off stage -- the smile, the walk, the talk -- just everything. it's like God said, Get me that Sexy Making Man package off the shelf and just poured out all the contents into that one little package.
I mean I really think even when Michael was very young he was VERY APPEALING to women of ALL ages.
So I want to talk a little bit now about what I mean by objectification.
I mean, I guess most everyone can probably figure out it means using a person as an object.
But I suppose the most clear definition is this:
On the surface it doesn't sound as bad, IMO, as it really is. When you objectify someone, while they are still sexy, beautiful and a container for your desire, its all good. But when they cease to be that -because of a scandal, because of a change in looks, because of whatever, then they are discarded, like a used tissue paper that no longer has any purpose.
In many ways that's what happened to Michael. When the world no longer saw him as a "everything sexual you could think of" they shelved him and dismissed him.
He became weird. He became a pedophile. He became a joke, Wacko Jacko.
What do you yourself say on your website -- not said to put you on the spot or make you feel defensive at all, because it is not an attack, I just want to explain and illustrate my point --
A lot of people rediscovered their love for Michael after he died. And because of the beauty of technology, youtube, thousands of pictures on the web, those of us like you, like me, who grew up with him, can go back and revisit that time in our lives when Michael was IT!!!
Those who didn't grow up with him can recapture the magic when the world was in love with him. And in many ways we can gloss over those horrible times when Michael became enemy number one. When the world did fall silent, and many did turn their back on him, and did not speak up for him and did not champion him.
And why did we do that -- we, meaning, THE WORLD, why did we turn our backs on him? Yes, there are a lot of exceptions to the rule, myself included, but to those who did why did they do that?
Because they didn't see him as a person. Because he had outgrown his use, and he wasn't' doing what he was doing for them anymore, so they moved on to those artists who did, and they fell in love with them.
It wasn't that Michael ever stopped making great music. It wasn't that Michael ever stopped being a charitable, loving soul. It wasn't that Michael ever stopped being sexy as hell!!!!! It wasn't that Michael ever stopped being the most amazing performer. It wasn't that Michael stopped being Michael.
It was that the world stopped seeing him as that. The media and those who were out to get him painted a different picture. A false picture of who Michael was, and the world believed it.
I spent an awful 20 minutes reading an article that this woman wrote ON THE DAY MICHAEL DIED, an ignorant misguided woman who thought she could speak on Michael's life. And I was horrified at the people who came out like FLIES to speak badly about this man!!!!!! And none of them, not one, knew what they were talking about!!!!!
Now don't get me wrong, Michael has one of the most die hard loyal fan bases in the world, and I know he loved his fans. I want to reiterate, I'm not talking about those fans.
So when you say, Martinigirl:
It's so true!!!! There are so many stories all over the web, some of them, each one more dirtier and more sexual than the last, and if that's what someone is looking for, then gosh darn it, they will find it!!!!! And as you said, if they can't find it, then they can, some of them who have the talent (and many who really don't) sit down and write their own little stories.
So what do I need to add my voice to the throng, then?
I don't. I really don't. I don't need to write those kind of stories, I leave it for the others to do that.
That's why it's so important to me, that it is very clear that my story, CM and BBM IS SUPPOSED to be different!!!!!! It's very important to me, that I am clear that my intention is different and to know that the story is being received differently, with the intention with which it's been written, by those who are able to receive it. Otherwise, I would not bother to write it.
So when you say this:
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU a hundred times over!!!!
I was feeling a bit disillusioned, like I was not really accomplishing my purpose, sort of how I guess Michael would feel if the world just saw Earth Song, or We are the World or Heal the World as just another pop song.
The songs are beautiful, they have depth and meaning and that's what I've put into the stories and I'm so glad that it IS being received in that light.
Awwww, Elmira, I just saw the pic you put up. Now honestly, I never thought of Randy as cute, even when he was younger. He always looked a bit . . . . I don't know, too feminine for me!!!!!
But I think it's very cute that YOU think he's cute!!!!! And Michael is always adorable!
Sabine!!! What a nice feeling to find your answer to my yesterday comment with such nice words !!
I'm happy to meet people like you, and since Michael left us a whole bunch of new friendships are builing all over the world like a silent growing forest, like silver threads that tie hearts together sometimes for just love and fun sharing, sometimes for noble purposes...
A little-big miracle Michael was able to do, in spite of being on the Other Side...
Thank you very much for your friendship!
L-O-V-E from Italy :)
Isabeau
P.S. One question out of pure curiosity: did you ever study pshycology? Your keen perceptiveness amazes me
Thank you.
Oh, okay, thank goodness! I feared you were unhappy with the direction your stories have taken when in the beginning that's not what you set out to do at all.
Yes. I don't want to repeat myself over and over...but I think, no I know that if I had only read CM for the sex, I wouldn't have bothered to comment or sign up on this site or talk to you, discuss with you till late in the night.
When I love something I want to say thank your for it, I want the people who created it to know my feelings because I know they put a lot of effort in it. What I love about the story is that appeals to me on many different levels, not just the sex, that's not enough, that would have burned itself out rather quickly I believe. So what kept me here pretty much from the beginning was the amazement about the fact that this story seems so real because it deals with Michael and the human being he was, with his issues, his fears, his passions and with love. And I love love! So I get excited about the love scenes, the sweet dialoges and the sexy love making scenes but I also get excited about how you make real life events of his life fit sooo well. You flesh them out, you give them more meaning to me, it feels like I'm there with him and thus I can understand better how he must have felt in this or that moment (e.g. when he wrote the letter to the press) - I LOVED that scene in BMM Act 1!!!)
So I feel just like the others here and I do care to hear what your intentions are. I never doubted them or felt that you were hurting Michael with your stories. When you described what your intentions is I pretty much felt like saying "yeah, this is how I saw the story anyway", and I don't think anybody can pretend to not understand or see what you set out to do. I mean these are really long chapters with ONE or sometimes two sex scenes in them! So nobody can actually go "well, she's objectifying Michael. Sure she says that's not her intention but it's obvious, all the sex!". That's maybe what they tell themsevles though so they don't feel so guilty about their decision to only read the story for the sex. But that's their problem then, right?.
Dearest Sabine, I come here to read what I feel and wish was Michaels life. You have done an amazing job of bringing him to life in my head, I come here to escape the messes of "Real life". Reading these stories have not in any way swayed my thinking of Michael. A true and deep soul that only wanted peace and love to revolve around the world. These stories dont keep me from donating to his charities, nor planting lots of trees in his memory. That part of Michael always comes first to my mind, a true fan knows what is going on here, good and at times quite sexy stories from your heart, not to mention your time. I sooooo appreciate your time in writing these stories, you have fans as well. I for one hope you continue to write. But youll always have my respect in what ever you decide to do. Please dont feel bad, your doing a good thing here. You know I dont comment often, so its important for you to know you have my support in continued writing and to know It dosnt change my feelings for ALL sides of Michael.
Much love and peace,
Hi Nic,
You know I never expected to read such heartfelt words! They are so sweet and sincere, they bring tears to my eyes.
really, i'm not lying!
I think it's Mel that said earlier, right in the beginning that she didn't feel I did this for accolades, and I hope that you guys can see that, too. I mean I love the interaction, because it's the sharing that means a lot to me. Knowing that I am helping to bring joy to so many people's lives, that's better than any feeling in the whole world.
I guess we all need to hear that we're doing some good. I mean, at least that's very important to me. Thank you for sharing your feelings
HI Cherry!
Well the direction that it might have taken in some people's minds. NOt that I can control that, but I felt it was time to state my original intention. I said so on the welcome page, why I made CCC, but I'm not sure everyone has read that page.
That's a great quality, Cherry. I appreciate that because I love to hear from my readers! I mean, it's a ridiculous thought, but imagine if Michael did a concert and no one came out!!! He would have been devastated!
Sometimes I google CCC and see what comes up. You'd be surprised what people are saying about the stories!!!!!
I mean it's all good of course (patting myself on the back) but a lot of it IS about the sex!!!!!
Hi again Isabeau,
You are so welcome! I want to acknowledge everyone who has written their thoughts and thank them personally because I don't want anyone to feel unheard.
It IS a miracle, isn't it, you half way across the world, but we can share this moment together and this understanding and see we have so much in common (like loving this beautiful man :heart:)
I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but you're not the first person to ask me that!!! Well, you see, because my family is quite dysfunctional (read: CRAZY) yes, I spent a lot of time reading and studying psychology, because I wanted to understand why they behaved the way they did.
All of that studying and I finally realized that you have to be CRAZY to completely understand crazy people!!!!!!
Enola had some trouble getting on the board but she sent me this email in regards to the subject matter of this post:
Hey Enola, sorry you had trouble getting on here to comment; that must have been frustrating
I think you might have been reading along though and maybe can understand by now that it's not that I am concerned that I am turning Michael into an object, or portraying him that way at all -- I know I'm not doing that!
My concern was that the stories were being interpreted that way and Michael was being used in that way; that CCC was being seen in that light and that somehow in some way I was promoting or contributing to that. Since I don't believe in that and I think it's pretty negative, I wanted to say something about it, and open up the floor for discussion.
Of course I can't control what people think and how they read, or even how they view CCC, but it was important to me that I make it clear that's not MY intention.
And as for the Valley, yes, I worried about how that portrayed Michael, since it's pretty clear what the Valley celebrates. :kissing:
Personally though I have to say, I think saying Michael asked for that attention is sort of like saying a woman asked to be raped if she's beautiful. Michael couldn't help being how he was -- doesn't mean he wasn't a real person, though, with feelings. He's certainly not responsible for how people responded to his beauty; I'm sure you get my meaning.
I do remember you saying I write the scenes respectfully. Thanks!!!!
Dear Sabine, you are so much fun to read!!! "you must be crazy to understand crazy people" :))))
You must be a very nice person to be around with...
Thanks for saying I'd be fun to be round
HMMM. GOOD POINTS YOU GOT THERE. ALTHOUGH THE SEX PART MAKE THE FANFICS EXCITING, IT SHOULDN'T BE ALL ABOUT SEX. ANYWAY, SABINE, YOU ARE A VERY TALENTED WRITER. NOT ALL PEOPLE CAN HAVE AS ORGANIZED AS YOU COULD BE WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING. I WOULD ADMIT THOUGH THAT OUT FROM ALL THE MICHAEL FANFICS I HAVE READ, THERE ARE JUST TWO WRITERS THAT MADE THE HAIRS ON MY SKIN RISE. OF COURSE THAT WOULD BE YOU, SABINE AND THE OTHER ONE IS... WELL I WON'T MENTION HER NAME HERE!
I REALLY LOVE YOUR STORIES ABOUT HIM BECAUSE EVEN IF IT WERE ALL JUST MADE UP STORIES, IT FELT REAL BECAUSE YOU RELATE YOUR STORIES TO WHAT HAD HAPPENED IN REAL LIFE TO HIM. I KNOW IT SOUNDS CHEESY BUT WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU WANT TO DO, I DO UNDERSTAND AND I WILL SUPPORT YOU. 
BUT STILL WILL MISS YOUR STORIES! YOUR SITE IS MY SANCTUARY, SABINE
Hey Dani, thanks for stopping by and weighing in. You don't sound cheesy at all!!!!!
You know, Dani, I thought for sure I was going to keep writing yesterday!!!! So let me just take this day by day. I'm not ready to say goodbye yet, so don't be so ready to miss me yet!!!!!
SWEET!
YOU JUST MADE 95.34% OF THE WORLD'S POPULATION HAPPY SABINE!
I'M GLAD YOU'LL CONTINUE TO WRITE!
THAT'S YOUR TALENT GIRL, SO YOU BETTER MAKE USE OF IT, THAT'S WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS... WELL, I THINK
Hey Sabine..
how are you doing???
Hi Elmira! I'm fine, I'm writing!
hi sabine! i hope you keep on writing this story because it's just fabulous!!! i agree with all the people who commented here that you made him real! reading CM i always thouht that i read his biography. you are a very good writer, very gifted!!! please, let me confess that i just loved reading those sexy scenes you wrote... i hope you update soon
Hey Sabine my name is Michelle I never comment but I really love your storys I really really do you are truly a genius when it comes to writing and I mean that I hope you never stop writing I admire your skills you are the best forgive me for my run off sentences I suck at writing I love this website as much as I love mj and that's a heck of alot. Love and peace
Hi Michelle! I recognize your name . . . you've been an addict of CCC for a while!!!
Thanks for all of the sweet comments!!!! I've been writing all my life and doubt I will ever stop
Its so much fun sharing the stories about Michael and hearing the feedback and comments and for now I've decided to keep writing so YAY, right?!?!?!?!
Wow. as much as you love MJ!!!!!
And don't worry about the sentence I understood you perfectly
Aw... what a nice picture!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I could find it and keep it.....
Yay Sabine knowing that you will keep writing made my day it really did I look forward to reading whatever you write and I'm surprise you never published one of your masterpieces at least not yet Can't wait to read more of your storys and I would like to know if this is the only website you write on again your great peace and love.
Well I published a baby masterpiece! It was a children's book but that was self-published, which I will never do again!!!
Yes, this is the only website I've written fictional stories on. I've written other stuff but they are non-fiction . .
Isabeau, here's the link for the pic that Elmira put up:
http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs649.snc4/60954_113116958747033_100001461876934_96658_7419909_n.jpg
OMG, elenikouraki! I'm so sorry I missed your message before. I just noticed it right now.
I just love how you write this:
That's so cute! I love that you love them and that you thought it was a biography! wow! thank you!!!!
I will keep on writing at least for now . . . okay let me get BACK to writing
Just stopped by to say hello!
I'm happy everything is fixed... but... will there be another chapter? ;)
Hey! is there an archive or something where I can see everything that you have posted?
HI Amanda!!!! The archive is the drop down menu from the top where it says "Are you an addict" if you click any one of those topics, it will take you to all the stories listed underneath them.
Isabeau, the newest chapter is UP!!!!
...well, sabine, you totally know what i am going to say.
i logged in here tonight after not reading anything for a couple of months. i wasn't ready yet. i was afraid because i had this gut feeling that when CBM ended, and even though you said sabah and Michael would continue with the next installment, that it wouldn't happen or that maybe you wouldn't keep going.
however, i convinced myself to come back and read and see what the next part would be like.
then i saw your post about not being sure if you want to keep writing it all.
i feel this: write only if the passion is still there to write. if it isn't, or you feel like it isn't how you want it to be, then don't do it.
to me, with CBM, you gave me him back. you gave me a chance to smile again and to laugh and to have him alive again.
what you gave to me was a gift and i was so incredibly sad when i knew that it was coming to and end, that i held off reading the final two chapters, remember?
i'm in love with him and with the thought of a "Sabah" and that story is in my heart forever. i am being totally serious.
i love them so much. and i loved them together. and you didn't make him into an object, you made him in to a man who had real feelings and thoughts and emotions that we all weren't lucky enough to see.
i never cared if you wrote about him 'gettin' some' with sabah... i loved their LOVE. their commitment to each other, their relationship and the story as a whole ie) with her mother, with her relationship with kit and jonathan and her career.
i loved ALL of it. as a WHOLE.
and i can't be the only person to feel this way.
i admit to not reading the 80+ comments above, so i'm not sure what others have been writing and i pretty much just wanted to express how i was feeling anyway.
When i said to you that NO other story will EVER touch my heart like yours did, i meant it completely. And i still mean it.
If you don't want to continue, then don't, because it won't feel right to you and that will come across when you write.
be true to yourself first.
i adore you personally and i adore your writing and Michael and his fictional, beautiful Sabah are in my heart forever. Just like you are.
~b
This is so beautiful -
Thank you. I will treasure this forever. I have decided to keep writing for now. I still feel inspired and motivated so Gods of Fiction are still smiling on me.
So you can go ahead and read on, BBM1 and 2 they'll be a few more of those, I promise
So, right now it ends at BBM 2 right?
Ends? ENDS?????
I understand what your saying 100% Sabine.
So I clicked on "Bad Boy Mike Act 3 A Walk In The Park" and this popped up, so I'm wondering if "A Walk In The Park" is sopposed to be the new chapter???
My mistake I ment to say "A Day In The Park"
I'm not sure how you got to this post, but it wasn't by clicking Bad Boy Mike Act 3, but yes, the subtitle of the new chapter is A Day In the Park.